2 points to discuss...2 points to change!

Point of discussion :1
Whew! Its already 2009...the year i shall graduate! Lord, this is really fast...rapid....unexpectedly fast!
I remember it as if it was just yesterday, when we all friends...DRAMAS used to discuss, how far away the day when we will graduate is! Lolzz...and look its nearly here!

Well, speaking of that let's get to the point.

Here i am doing a project with 2 of my friends and colleagues, for BPCL. For any engineer, the system is a pretty simple one to develop. Its purely theoretical, practical and technical, thought the system Ideology is now fast fading off.

What we are designing is a Software based application, for maintaining Electrical Complaints...i.e. complaints for maintaining electrical components. The system itself is a simple idea. Developing it should be a piece of cake...Lolz..but that is not so!

Facing problems is enough while designing such a system that the problem that we cant proceed sits right in front of us, with its legs crossed, as if saying: U shall not proceed further.

It becomes difficult when you encounter a problem, think over it, break your head, even though you know how to solve it. At times the method of solving it is not the ideal one, you know it and still, in the end, you have no option but to go for it!

The same problem i faced while doing the design pages, in ASP.NET. I intended to use Multiviews and Views, so that the navigation part of pages, reduces load and is on the same page. My idea was to design a page itself and retrieve it inside a View, so that the navigation from a Treeview, on clicking will direct the page to the particular view with the desired page.

For eg. if i were to design a page for viewing a report in a view, with id=View1, on clicking Reports in the treeview, i should be redirected to that View, which will fetch a page which has been requested for..i.e. for Reports!

Seems that the idea is not for the keeps! Its not suitable enough or is incorrect to implement. I did not find a single solution or method that could help me to do this! I tried to apply all my knowledge that i had and even searched for stuff online, but in Vain! :(

I finally had to give up the idea and use simple Switch case so that different parts i designed in the views could get displayed! The problem occured when for every view, the display depended on the location of the view...i.e if the View was at the bottom of the Multiview, the page too, would display it at the bottom of the page!!!!!! This is pathetic! I am not able to find a solution for it!

I gave up...thinnking maybe, some sort of miracle will happen and some day it will strike me. As of now, that Miracle hasnt yet occured.

Then began Database related work! The major goof-up i faced here was, that instead of installing Mixed-Authentication, i selected Windows Authentication and messed up with the SA login! Now the problem i face is that I cant do certain things in the database! So here i am, uninstalling and re-installiung the SQL server 2005!! I really hope it gets installed without any glitch else, the old error, always faced: SQL.CAB not found will pop up and ill start cursing myself for having uninstalled the SQL Server!!!!!!!!!!!!.........Pleassee god!!!

In addition to the problem of SQL authentication, the Database Connectivity with the VS 2005 also fails! Lolzz...i really hope the Installation goes off successfully!!

Point of discussion:2

Music is such a vast subject that i neednt explain about it from the beginning. Being a maharashtrian, i have an open mind towards music of different cultures and languages. I find it extremely thrilling to be exposed to any new Genre of music...So far, I have Learnt Hindustani Classical music and hold a degree in it since the past 6 years, but have nothing significant to be mentioned regarding my achievements in it for the past 5 years! :( that's the point which disappoints my parents i guess.

But, i really enjoy listening to any music. Light music(hindi and marathi), semi-classical, Classical(indian, western) all appeal to me. Rock, Pop, Jazz are obviosly the music of the current decade since, every next album has some kind of Pop or Rock or Jazz in it. Its the lyrics that matter to me alongwith the tune, when it comes to Non-classical type of music.

If the tune is suitable to the lyrics, the song becomes mine...i can literally say, the song gets imprinted in my head. :)

Right now, i have taken a decision really important to my life and career too. How good or bad it will be turn out to be, i have no idea, but, the difficulty i faced in taking the decision was like: Take one and regret on the other!

:(...dunno...im trying to cope with the other as yet, i face just difficulty in doing it! I hope to achieve the success i had thought of, and the opportunity i have decided to take, i pray it doesnt let me down...ill try my best at it...
So, pray for me will you?? :)

Solution to arrive at solutions!

All that you want for is always in the plate before you. But the trick is to eat it without touching with your hands and spilling it!

Unruly and unclean ways to do this, will be to simply put your mouth into it, and Mess your face, clothes, but at the same time, enjoy the careless happiness that you experience in being so very...say wat...ummm..indisciplined!! Haha!

How to get to it, in a very precise, clean and solvable manner, is to be thought out very carefully.

• You can simply ask someone to feed you! As simple as that.
  

But then, wont that be dependancy? To maintain your own self respect, it is what you wont follow!

Umm...what else could be the way out?

• You could even design a complex robotic system, that will do everything that you want it to do, i.e. Train it with Neural Networks, make it understand the step by step process of eating, different ways in which you could want to eat.

But lord! Wont that be a little too complex and tedious...Ohh...Tedious should be the Understatement of the Blog! Lolzz, your entire life will get spent and at the very end of your days, will you try to eat from the hands of such a robot!

Think...more...much better?! C'mon we have more wits than that!

• UPS students will give us witty answers like: I would stop eating and only opt for drinking!
  

Oh Gosh, How very boring! The sound of the challenge itself is pretty exciting. We need to think of a perfect solution, whch wont take much time, and will help us achieve our goal. Or maybe something, which will take a bit of sometime but will give us much better results.

That is how, leaders or for that matter, Successful Leaders and Managers think of problems. A set of Challenges, which on overcoming gives the satisfaction to have achieved the right sense of authority, priority, perspicability and innovation!

The solution to our problems lies not in the correct method, but the correct way of thinking. This way of thinking gives us the strength and courage, determination and definity, ability to develop new ideas or modify old ones. The way of thinking, the approach, is the solution to the solution of problems, and that is what the Understanding of our Inner Self Gives us. Inner Self is the divinity and it is reached only by Meditating, for even, 5 minutes of the day!

SO Get up, Meditate, Understand and Solve!

Twists and Turns

Its just a matter of days when Change stops evading you and you'rte face to face with the very change you were desiring for, unknowingly, unwittingly...:D
blah blah blah...i've been crappy and written all dat mushy mushy stuff abt bng alone, depressed...lolzzz!!!
wat i realize now is life is always there to give a you a right direction!
you wish something dearly...from d bottom of ur heart and some day u'll get t...unexpectedly.
just wish hope and forget!
hehe...newaz the main topic today isnt this stuff!!! :D its d biggest change :------ IM SPECTACLED!!!!
LOLZZZ
a spectacular event...bespectacled gal dat i hv become now, i really dunn expect that i shall change, though i can feel myself changing bit by bit!!! :D
they say, looking at the world through glasses is different...n how very true it is!!! It looks comepletely different!
The lens makes all the difference...gehehehe, wearing them though, still seems a pain to me...not in d literal sense, but just to look at an object at a distance, i need to depend on smthing inanimate or non living!!!! oops...an undeniable, initially undogestible fact...but then look at it this way: if u can love sm1 and say u cant live without them or get completely dependant on sm individual for any kind of help be it economic, personal, professional, social...etc! then y cant we depend on smthing so very trivial and fragile like a pair of lenses embedded in a simple frame so u can look at things clearly and better!!!its gn2 b our own benefit!!! ;)
So, Spectacularity of the Specular phenomena of being Bespectacled, is Special and Spectacular!

HAPPY BDAY TO ME!! ....

Life has shown me three different levels of Important People in my life!
The most important which are my family...Mom, Dad, Grandparents,Siblings, Cousins.
The next level is for friends, and Loved ones...yes...someone we love comes at level 2 of importance...because...though we say, we love them so much...our heart thinks of our parents too!
Third level is...someone who u arent so close to...but still think of them...as sm1 who is nice n good and worthy of ur care.

I hv sm people on d 2nd level...so impt and so very grown...just wanted to be wid them...nothing more than sweet friendship, coz i knw dats d best i can get..n i was happy wid it...but they hv done d same....stranded me alone...in a place where i dont know where to go...
i searched for them...in dat hellish desert...called out so loud...but in vain....d rough winds blew ...i fell...scorched in d heat, bruised due 2 the rough lands and sand....i still hoped and waited...waited and waited...
till everything grew dark and cold...n made me realize, i hv to make my own way...my own path.......which was so tough...it teared me up...it made me lose all hope...
but this constant murmur in my mind...which was my friends...my support my strength...made me stand on my feet...n grope in d pitch darkness...n i finally stumbled upon the lost path...i made it...all alone...hurt but grown.

wht important people do to us we dont care...as long as they care...but when they dont care it hurts pains, stings like an old wound getting fresh!
Maybe this is just a phase...but it was a case...it made me grow, it made me strong, its making me forget ALL MY WRONGS!...maybe dis heart will forgive...but never will it forget...

D most important year...so that i never forget...
Happy Bday bby...im ur best frend alone...so stop ur stupid groan! :D
hehhe
happy bday to me...happy bday to me...
but still...god...pls...bless them and forgive me!

BDAY GIFT

21 yrs on earth...WOW!
This is going to be a new start for me??!!!

This b'day i shall remember always...
Coz of the Gift...parting of ways.
The losses are heavy,
But it taught to smile.
It has taught to be cheerful,
It has taught to see positivity in the darkness...
It has taught to be strong when the loss is heavy.
It has taught to carry on and leave behind d debris,
It has taught to live and let live.
It has taught Selflessness
It has taught Selfishness.
It has taught Close ones can be harsh
It has taught Unexpected times are always rash.
It has taught that Laughter is cure to pain
It has taught that Pain isnt the only way to gain.
It has taught that too much happiness and laughter leads to tears
It has taught that these tears are not bad, they are cleansers.
It has taught people dear to you can become dearer,
It has taught that this is so because of love and trust...so pure.
Life isnt so easy
Life isnt so hard either.
Aspect of looking at it is upto you,
The clearing of vision is learned by self...and few!

I still pray for a lot of things,
But have lernt to respect and not expect
As it will result shattering of trust and belief
And then from pain and tears you shall never get relief!

Gift of 21, is great,
Maybe its my fate,
Though its never too late,
I hope...the pain will abate!
Cheerios!
Countdown...3 to go! :D

Saikou No Kataomoi...

Another song i fell in love with...due to the feelings the music stirred in me and the meaning...u'll understand as u read!!Ask me for the song incase u like d lyrics...

SAIKOU NO KATAOMOI-UnRequited Love....

Itsumo sugoku jiyuu na anata wa ima
Kono ame no naka donna yume wo oikaketeiru no
Dokoka de kodoku to tatakai nagara
Namida mo gaman shiterun darou

Normally you were so free in spirit –
What dream might you be chasing after now in this rain?
No matter where you might be battling with loneliness,
You were always holding back your tears, right?

Hitori de mo daijoubu to anata mo watashi to onaji
Toomawari bakari dakedo naze ka kono michi ga suki de
You say “I’ll be all right even when alone.” - just like I do
Despite detours everywhere, for some reason, we have taken to this path

Shiawase da toka ureshii toki wa
Anata no koto wo omoidasu kara
Iro azayaka na kisetsu wa kitto
Kono omoi todokete kureru
In times of happiness or joy,
I’ll remember you
And I am sure that this season, with its vivid colours,
Will convey these feelings of mine to you

Akogare toka suki toka kirai da toka
Sou iu kimochi da to wo dokoka chigaun da keredo
Anata no sono utsukushii nagare ni
Watashi mo nosete hoshii
Longing, liking, or dislike –
Though saying my feelings for you are of those seems somewhat wrong,
I want to follow your beautiful shadow

Aimai na kotoba yori mo kantan na yakusoku yori
Hoshii no wa te no nukumori soshite
Futari dake no toki
More than vague words or simple promises,
What I desire is the warmth of your hand, and
A time only for the two of us

Moshimo anata ga kanashii no nara
Ashita ga sukoshi mienai no nara
Tayotte hoshii watashi wa kitto
Kore kara mo anata mo houmou
If you should feel sad,
Or if tomorrow [the future] can’t be clearly seen,
I, who wish you would rely on me,
Would continue to think of you

Shiawase da toka ureshii toki wa
Anata no koto wo omoidasu kara
Iro azayaka na kisetsu wa kitto
Kono omoi todokete kureru
In times of happiness or joy,
I’ll remember of you
And I am sure that this season, with its vivid colours,
Will convey these feelings of mine to you

Shinjitsu no Uta-Song of Truth

akaku nijimu taiyou wa subete o

terashite kita ima mo mukashi mo

kono yuuyami ni egaiteru souzouwa

hatashite kono te ni oenai mono na no ka?

the crimson-stained sun

has illuminated everything; now and the past

is what i have imagined within this twilight

more than my own hands can accomplish?

motto ima ijou ni  hadaka ni natte

ikite yuku jutsu  oshiete yo

honno sukoshi dake  watashi o yogoshite

sou yatte hitori  kizutsuitari

mawari o nakushita to shite mo

shinjitsu no uta wa kono mune ni nagare


please teach me how to live

a little more vulnerably than i do now

won't you taint me just a little?

that way, even if i get hurt and lose everything around me

this song of truth will flow through my heart

arasoi wa mada tsuzukun darou

dono michi ima ga taisetsu na no sa

gamushara ni natte  miotoshite kita mono

tatoeba dare ka no yasashii hohoemi mo

this dispute will probably go on

about that which is most precious[2]

i've become a rebel, i've overlooked things

even the gentle smiles of strangers

eien o shireba  donna kurayami mo

itami mo itsuka kiete

sou yatte ima wa watashi o yogoshite

zutto mukashi mita tenkuu no shiro ni

itsuka wa  tadoritsukeru

shinjitsu no uta o michishirube ni shite


if eternity knows what manner of darkness

and when pain will vanish,then that way,

you shall taint me

i looked always to yesterday, to the castles in the sky

when will i be able to follow them?

this song of truth shall be my guide

eien o shireba donna kurayami mo

itami mo itsuka kiete

shinjitsu no uta wa kono mune ni nagare


if eternity knows what manner of darkness

and when pain will vanish,

this song of truth will flow through my heart

motto ima ijou ni

watashi o yogoshite

hon no sukoshi dake

watashi o yogoshite

now, please, taint me just a little

please, just taint me, only a little

shinjitsu no uta o  michishirube ni shite

this song of truth shall be my guide

Tunes to Life....

Tap the feet, tap the fingers, hum the tune, swoon in the mood!

Nod your head, sway with the rhythm, fill up your senses, Let down Your DEFENCES!

Moods are what makes us human, aint it? I find this statement quite interesting. Lets check out how, mood and music…M&M relate with us…

Music…music reminds you of notes…music reminds you of rhythm…music remind you of Bach, Beethoven, Bryan Adams, Aatif Aslam…etc etc etc.

Song…say the word…and the most favourite song or the most recent song you liked pops into your head. You start humming it…either, while reading this…or after this…its doubtless! Music makes a very big impact in everybody’s life…on everybody’s mind…

Today just everybody has a device which will give us music…radios, MP3s, iPhones etc. All of them…are a must! Must…as in…one of the most essential things to live…like Oxygen…it is something people are involved in…rated Next to Oxygen’s Importance in life!

Music…the music that appeals to all…its different…it’s a question of tastes…it’s a question of basic nature…it’s a question of moods…

Basically…human moods are only 2…Happiness and Sadness…just that the types vary according to the basic nature of a person.

In Happiness…you will be listening music which is very peppy or dance numbers, something very soulful, something which makes us smile…something which lets us stay happy…keeps us happy!

In times of Sadness…you will be listening to sad numbers, which render meaning of loss, heartbreaks, realizations, “tears”! Even if some peppy number pops up, we change it…to keep constancy in the state of mind…to keep ourselves reminding of the situation…

Its weird…at times, when we laugh, we think of a few phrases which remind us of how happy we are…and in sad times, we think of any line which makes us even sadder…but this shows us how very much Music is the essence of life!

So…music addicts…music lovers and all those who live in music…Keep Enjoying…don’t let the life of Music die!

QUESTIONS FOR GOD!

Goodbye…it is felt deep down…I feel it…deeply, strongly…it drives me crazy…this feeling of being shut out!! Cant react, cant resist, cant reach out…it’s a helpless feeling, a void…loneliness…is what a goodbye does!

Sensitive heart…I have one…sure…over sensitive these days? Am I over-reacting? At times the thought consumes me with guilt…with hatred and an overwhelming sense of stupidity…but am I not to ever be myself? Am I never to be allowed to be someone who expresses emotions? Emotions are the sole players here…rendering me helpless…

Taking Help…speaking out…makes me feel as if im burdening others…the burden I carry is enough…they are enough burdened…why should I add to it?

To change…is scary. Im seeing it closely…change affects others more than yourself…you slip into the changed mode as easily as a glove fits your hand! But…the world…our world around us…the people who are our world…they are hit…bad…Am I hitting out…or being hit? I don’t understand…changes happen in fractions of seconds…within hours…within a single day….changes can be within a year…or continuosly…but how to face it?

Holding strong…like a sturdy wall…requires a goddamn load of courage…Courage? Me? Am I capable? Will courage help me? Will I be able 2 face anything? Or is Courage merely “Ignoring” what you don’t want to face? Ignorance is Bliss? Is it? Or isn’t?

The force…that force…not all believe in…I believe in it…though…at times…it seems in vain. At times it seems the gap will close…ill cross it…the gap between sanctity and peace of mind…but the trust breaks…all hopes crash…is all this just supposed to happen without a break?

End…something that is an Evitable Condition…for life…and “Non-life”! Then y life? End should be specific…not random…it should warn not surprise. Face it? Or Suffer it? How to decide? Isnt it obvious to be reached? Y cnt I accept it…? Y is the End word an End??

Tears…the cleansing solution! Either way…happiness or sadness….Cleansed! Complete…Tears…the friends? Or…Tears…the enemies? Will they just flow out n mean nothing later? Are tears Emotions in Visible form?

Questions…why do I have so many? Why don’t they have answers? What will they fulfill? Questions give answers? Or Questions give rise to Questions? Questions satisfy Curiosity…or arouse it more?

Why does the factor U…return back to I? Why is relation always to myself? Does every situation relate to my life? Does Life try to imitate me or Do I imitate life?

What is Life?...if the end is END!

Jag soona soona

An Absolutely Touching song...

"main taan jiyaan…

na maraan…
haye ve, dass main ki karaan…

dil jude bina hi tutt gaye
hathh mile bina hi chutt gaye
ki likhe ne lekh kismat ne
baar baar ronn akhiyaan
tainu jo naa vekh sakiyaan
kho leya hai yaar khud rabb ne
kattaan main kiven din
teri saun tere bin
main taan jiyaan na maraan"

chhan se jo tute koi sapna, (jag soona soona laage - 2)
koi rahe na jab apna, jag soona soona laage
jag soona soona hai toh yeh kyun hota hai
jab yeh dil rota hai, roye sisak sisak ke hawaayein, jag soona laage
chhan se jo tute koi sapna, (jag soona soona laage - 2)
koi rahe na jab apna, (jag soona soona laage - 2) re
soona laage re

roothi roothi saari raatein, phike phike saare din
viraani si viraani hai, tanhaayi si tanhaayi hai
aur ik hum pyaar ke bin har pal
chhan se jo tute koi sapna, (jag soona soona laage - 2)
koi rahe na jab apna, (jag soona soona laage - 2) re

patthron ki iss nagari mein, pattha chehre, patthar dil
phirta hai maara maara kyun raahon mein tu aawaara
yahaan na hoga kuchh haasil, mere dil
chhan se jo tute koi sapna, (jag soona soona laage - 2)
koi rahe na jab apna, jag soona soona laage
jag soona soona hai toh yeh kyun hota hai
jab yeh dil rota hai, roye sisak sisak ke hawaayein, jag soona laage
chhan se jo tute koi sapna, (jag soona soona laage - 2)
koi rahe na jab apna, (jag soona soona laage - 2) re
soona laage re mohe

Time

Time belongs to you...
U need to understand it...flow with it...
Run with it, walk hand in hand with it...
Even if u dont...its there...by your side always...helping u...hurting u...
To understand time, it takes a long time...at Times, Ages!
Time teaches, time helps,
Time Gives, Time takes,
Time may Forgive...but never Forgets...
Why Does Time never bend for anyone?
Time...i wish u cud b my friend...
Time...u stole much from me, which i can never regain, change!
Study understand and smile with Time,
It will never let you down.
A Stitch in Time Saves Nine,
Time and Tide wait for None,
Its Never too late to do what you want,
Are all calls of Time to you, oh man
Respond to it Right,
Against time Then you'll never Need to Fight
And so you will see, Your Future So BRIGHT!

Energy

Watashi No Enagee

"MY...ENERGY"

(---for you...."Honey"!)

motto motto chikaku ni kanjitetai yo
kimi no sono taion wo

I want to feel it even closer, closer
That warmth of yours

hirahira kaze ni mau kareha no sei de
itsumo to chigau kono saka
kimi no deatta toki ni wa
tada midori no TONNERU ga tsuzuiteita

Because of the dry leaves fluttering in the wind
This hill seems different than usual
When I met you
It was a continuous tunnel of nothing but green

itsumo kayoi nareta basho datta no ni
kyou wa hitori ga sabishiku natta
kimi ga tonari ni inai dake de
kootteiku sekai ni kurushiku naru no

It's a place I got used to passing through
But today, all alone, I became lonely
Simply because you aren't by my side
The world freezes over, and it's painful

motto motto chikaku ni kanjitetai yo
kimi no sono tsuyosa made zenbu
sugoku tooku hanareta basho ni itatte
tsunagatteiru kara

I want to feel it even closer, closer
That strength of yours, and everything
Even though we are in greatly separated places
We are connected

yasashii sono koe mo watashi wo mitasu energy

That gentle voice is the energy that fills me

kirakira ame sasou yuugure no machi
kasa wo motazu ni dete kita
bishonure no watashi wo mite
kimi wa IJIWARU ni waratteita

Beckoned by the sparkling rain, I went out
Into the evening town, without an umbrella
Seeing me all drenched
You laughed unkindly

mizutamari wo waza to futari de funde
hamon wo mitsume yakusoku shita ne
kimi no daisuki na fuyu ga kitara
futari no kioku ni kagi wo kakeru to

Together we stepped into the puddles on purpose
Watching the ripples, we made a promise
When the winter you love so much arrives
We will lock away the memories of us

nee
zutto zutto soba de dakishimetetai yo
kimi no sono yowasa datte zenbu
donna kimi ga tsuyogatte misetetatte
tsutawatte kuru kara

Hey
I want to embrace you always, always
That weakness of yours, and everything
No matter how much you show that you've grown stronger
It will still show through

onaji yozora no shita kimi ga naiteiru koto

Beneath the same night sky, you were crying

zutto zutto soba de dakishimeteite yo
atashi no kono itami wo nugutte
tatoe kimi ga atashi wo wasurechatte mo
zutto matteru kara

Embrace me always, always
Wipe away this pain of mine
Even if you should forget me
I will always be waiting

motto motto chikaku ni kanjitetai yo
kimi no sono taion wo itsudemo
sugoku tooku hanareta basho ni itatte
tsunagatteiru kara

I want to feel it even closer, closer
That warmth of yours, always
Even though we are in greatly separated places
We are connected

yasashii sono koe mo atatakai sono ondo mo
kimi no sono subete ga watashi ugokasu energy

That gentle voice, that warm temperature
everything of yours, is the energy that moves me!!

der i go again....

"there it goes again!"
....it seems like i like to whine, but then in the end, everythings just Fine! :)
Its begun again.....
The time when i m down,
When i can only see reasons to frown
My mood is just down...just down.

Everyone when around,
I can laugh and be soo very profound
But when alone i can see, think n hear none
Of those words and sound.

Everything looks sinister, Everything looks bad
Makes me crazy, makes me Mad
Im alone traversing the paths of Destiny
With nothing around
Loneliness just kills me.

At times I trudge through the Waist deep snow,
Seems like the Candle within gives a glow,
Another small event occurs and the light goes out
"I've failed " i think, without any doubt.

Still persevering, due to a sliver of hope
I know, against the obstacles of life, I can cope,
Walking, Crawling, Limping, Dragging,
Because my own Conscience is constantly Nagging.

When i reach the End of the journey,
Hands reach out, like they're for me
Support and Courage it to me renders
Of my soul, they are the Menders.

Continues the rest of the path, till another such journey
Though it seems similar, its a new one, Im sure, it will go away,
'Cause Im headstrong and hopeful, therein my strength lays!

ADVICE

You are born, Life as open as a green and dancing meadow
Joy comes, lifts you in its arms,
Swings you, enlivens you,
Makes you giggle, makes you laugh,
Bliss corners you and you continue.


Learning becomes a part of your life
Anger, Like, Love, Aspire, Expect,
Are giving you lessons and teach you
Patience, Calm, Dislike, Hate and Deject.

Mistakes happen, Situations darken
Path wanders, Mind wavers
Then comes out the soul wrenching Cry
For help to get rescue and safety.

Shadows grow long and encroach into your Fear
When you look around dark valleys surround you, leaving no space to Veer,
Its cold, its harsh, its oppressing
It drives you crazy, It makes you Wild
It is something you can never Just pass by.

Stay Strong, you’ll never go wrong,
Don’t Cry it makes you weak,
Don’t Fear, it draws out a tear,
Don’t Give up, You’ll emerge the Winner.

Don’t complain don’t fret
It will get you nowhere,
Be patient be calm
Or you’ll hate yourself always!

Two sides of a Coin,
Smile and Cry,
Always rule your life,
Dont let them Rule,
Else you'll end up a Fool.

ARIGATOU

The clouds are floating by... The wind is singing
Even now, along the streets I always used to run along,
white flowers are blooming and smiling.

But it's unstoppable. It chokes me up inside
I love the present, but it will always pass...
It's just like a fragment of the dream I cried over long ago

The serenity that floats by like a fluffy white cloud
And the worries that make my tears spill over
are both connected to the precious future,

Even when tomorrow comes
Even when someday I become an adult
I'm sure I'll always remember.
that you were here with me.
I'll never forget,
even when I'm in the very ends of this vast world.
For this moment that will never disappear,
I thank you, everyone.
so...

The moon is shining down. The wind is sleeping.
In the sky above that always smiles down on this town,
even now shooting stars are granting wishes.

But I don't understand... I don't want us to ever part
for as long as time passes, but we end up being far apart
It's just like the bookmark in the book I read yesterday.

My longing to shine like the twinking stars
And my feelings, however sad they may be,
are both connected to the precious future,
so...

Even when the seasons pass,
even if it's in some unfamiliar place somewhere
I'm sure the future is unfolding.
I'll never forget
that you were all here with me.
For what has quietly begun
from this little place,
I thank you, everyone.

The land where we rode our dreams
set forth from our memories
We'll meet again.
For now, please smile...

Even if it's for a long long time...
Even if you go off far away somewhere
I definitely want you to keep in touch.
Don't forget
that I was here with you...
no matter where you are in this vast world.
For these feelings that will never disappear,
I thank you, everyone.

Thank you for all your tenderness
Thank you for all your happiness
Thank you for all your kindness
Thank you for all your everything...

watashi no wa nani naru??

Kyou watashi no kimochi wa totemo takai desyo! Ai no ni iru!
Ureshi no kimochi wa Ai ni narimashita!
Anata ga oboeru...wasuretai ga, wasureru koto ga dekinai!
Anata, omae ga ichiban daisuki desyo!

Omae ga watashi no kimochi wo yoku wakaranai, shiranai noni
Watashi wo wasurechattemo, zutto maatteimasyo!!
Kokoro wa omae kara ai ni ippai...itsumo!!!

----anata no....sukidatta ni hito!

Smile is Misleading!

Life has become such a mess and complex puzzle!! I just cannot say "Im fine" with a light and a true hEART these days!!!

Though practically LIFE IS NOT SO STRAIGHTFORWARD, still, being a human, i still feel disappointed and pained!

None of d relationships(friendship, family,love) hold true...all have become so disappointing! At some stage, if one begins to show some sign of being the perfect one and ultimately show the way to satisfaction, it immediately shows its true colors!

Friendship, companionship, comradeship......Ufff!!! M real bored of these ''SHIP''PING businesses!
But then, they are the most important part of my life. Though thats true, i havent really experienced What true friendship is! I have friends...many friends....some which i call close...but now, i knw, who is close and who isnt! Infact that closeness doesnt even come close to being that special friendship which i have been searching for ages!

Its not that m absolutely depressed, it makes me sad, it makes me feel, 'Watda hell?Why cant everything f9 n simple?'

What is the true meaning of life, if we really are meant to suffer for every hour,minute, second of happiness we experience?

Sometimes life seems the best, sometimes is extremely dull, sometimes has no element of humor n happiness watsoever! These moments tend to render the happy moments to become Sad, when their memories are awakened by some small instance!

How should i then say m happy? M njoing myself?

Though i feel happy at times, even smiling at the moments when i sulk or cry, Pain and Sadness comes gushing with a force double than that of the happiness!! it is then, i revert back to the same old thoughts of Y shud dis Sadness always pursue us? When d darkness begins, comes with it a sense of absolute hopelessness that light will never come again, the birds will not sing again, the sound of the raindrops will never make me feel as good as new, the sky will never b as blue as forget me nots!!

Is there really no solution to all this pain, which is doubly hurting than a simple smile?
Will there be no Ray of Hope to brighten up or eliminate the darkness which always lurks behind a small but infectious smile?

In Times Of

-by Kit McCallum

My soul drifts aimlessly in times of hopelessness. It searches tirelessly for meaning and truth ... Yet finds no direction. My heart bleeds quietly in times of loneliness. It yearns to find warmth and happiness ... Yet it somehow eludes me. My eyes seek out visions in times of want. They gaze endlessly through the blackness that envelops them ... Yet they cannot see the light. My ears listen earnestly in times of silence. They search for familiar sounds to comfort and console ... Yet they cannot penetrate the darkness that surrounds me. My arms reach out frantically in times of despair. They seek strength and compassion to enfold me ... Yet they find nothing substantial to enwrap. My mind cries out desperately in times of solitude. It poses intense questions that demand answers ... Yet there are none to be found. *** My hand reaches out earnestly in these times of confusion. It dials the number of a familiar and calming voice ... And gratefully, my lifeline to sanity ... remains intact. A poem...very true to what i feel very often since the past few days....

Say a little prayer

Dis is for someone Special!!

From the moment I wake up
Before I put on my makeup
I say a little prayer for you..
While combing my hair now
And wondering what dress to wear now
I say a little prayer for you...

Forever, and ever, you'll stay in my heart, and I love you
Forever, and ever, we never will part, oh I love you
Together, together, that's how it should be
To Live without you
Would only mean heartbreak for me...

I run for the bus dear, while riding I think of us dear,
I say a lil prayer for you
At work I just take time, and all through my coffee break time
I say a lil prayer for you...

My darling believe me
For me there is no one but you
Please love me too...I say dis prayer…I’m in love with u…

FRIENDS

Stevie Wonder - That's What Friends Are For Lyrics

Verse 1
And I
Never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try to feel the way we do today
And than if you can't remember.....


Chorus
Keep smilin'
Keep shinin'

Knowin' you can always count on me
for sure
that's what friends are for

In good times
And bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Verse 2
Well you came and open me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you....


Ohhh and then
For the times when we're apart
Well just close your eyes and know
These words are comming from my heart
And then if you can't remember....Ohhhhh
..........
THANX GALS!

OUR SONG

R: Kagayaku sora tto
N: kimi no koe
R: ryo te hirogete
N: kanjitai
  

R: A glittering sky and
N: Your voice
R: With both hands spread out
N: I want to feel it

A: hikaru yuuhodo futari ude o kumi
ironna kotto o kikasete hoshii
K: ienakatta no zutto suki datta
hatsukoi kashira mune ga itai

A: A sparkling promenade both hands put together
I want you to listen to various things
K: There was a lot of unspoken love
Puppy love, I wonder? My heart aches

S:itsuka eki no hoomu koshi dekaruku warai tte o futta
N:sonna gogo no kaerimichi wa
S: tokimeitete yuuyake ga mabushii

S:Somewhere a station home to go over
waved your hand with a light smile
N:Like that afternoon return trip
S: That the throbbing sunset was radiant

R: kagayaku sora tto
N: kimi no koe
R: ryotte hirogete
N: kanjitai
A: watashi no kimochi
K: todoku yoni
A: ryotte hirogete
K: uketomete

R: A glittering sky and
N: Your voice
R: With both hands spread out 
N: I want to feel it
A: My feelings
K: Like reaching them
A: With both hands spread out 
K: Catch them

S: himitsu no tegami takusan kaita kedo
kyoo nara kitto daseru ki ga suru

S: Wrote a lot of secret letters, but
if it was today, surely my feelings would come out

N: kinoo yonda hoshiuranai
K: kitto umaku ikisoo de
A/R: sukoshi yuuki dashita keredo
A: doki doki de aozora ga mabushii

N: The horoscope that was read yesterday
K: Surely, it seems it will go well, and
A/R: A little courage came out, but
A: With excitement, the blue skies are radiant

R: kagayaku sora tto
N: kimi no koe
R: ryotte hirogete
N: kanjitai
A: watashi no kimochi
K: todoku yoni
A: ryotte hirogete
K: uketomete

R: A glittering sky and
N: Your voice
R: With both hands spread out
N: I want to feel it
A: My feelings
K: Like reaching them
A: With both hands spread out
K: Catch them

S/R/A: kagayaku sora tto
N/K: kimi no koe
S/R/A: ryotte hirogete
N/K: kanjitai
S/R/A: watashi no kimochi
N/K: todoku yoni
S/R/A: ryotte hirogete
N/K: uketomete
S/R/A: kagayaku sora tto
N/K: kimi no koe
S/R/A: ryotte hirogete
N/K: kanjitai

all six of us are imagined to be singing!:)

:) Cheers to FRIENDS :)

The post just after this is for my closest friends...well d photograph is of all of us together!

Irrespective of what they feel about it, me or us; I have just posted it because i have realized that they are some so very special people in my life, that i cant imagine living on without them.
Though it might seem to sentimental and and so very absurd to them when they read it, I love them a lot.
This is a realization which struck me today, when while returning home, i happened to sit a bit away from them, coz i thot i shouldnt be irritating them. I dunno, i hv been trying to improve over my communication with them, cracking idiotic jokes but at the same time trying to understand what they feel and what they need to be there for them, but today, i thought that i simply might be overdoing it by irritating them.
So, since i cant say all this to them openly, i'm sorry for whatever i do unkwowningly to hurt them or irritate them. This is my way to express myself. I cant do better! :)
Hey, there are two more songs which are coming up for us!
"Whatever happens in future, Thank You!"

TOMODACHI...ga daisuki !

shigyou BERU kinishinagara  kakete kuru KURASUMEITO
  koe kakeru no  nee "Ohayou!"
  natsukusa ga kaoru hodou  hohoemide hajimaru asa
  itsumo to onnaji dakedo
     Worrying about the starting bell, a classmate comes running up
        calling "Good morning!"
        The sidewalk is fragrant with summer grasses.
           The morning begins with a smile.
        It's the same as always, but...

sarigenai shunkan sae  watashi no takaramono
  kokoro no ARUBAMU ni  hatte aru
     Even a casual moment is a treasure to me,
        pasted in the album of my heart.

* wasurenai (kono sora wo)
  wasurenai (kono yume wo)
  anata to ima wakeau  yasashii kisetsu
  kanashikute (yureta hi mo)
  ureshikute (naita hi mo)
  taisetsu na omoide na no
     I won't forget (this sky)
        I won't forget (this dream)
        the gentle seasons I now share with you.
        In sadness (the days I shook and),
        In joy (the days I cried),
        these are important memories.

hi ga ataru watarirouka  tomodachi ni uchiaketa ne
suteki na hito  demo "naisho..."
kiri-sugita kami wo kuyami  nemurenai yoru mo atta
itsuka wa waraeru kashira
     In a covered passage in the sun, I confided in a friend:
        a wonderful person, but "it's a secret..."
        Lamenting the hair I cut too short, there were nights I couldn't sleep.
        I wonder if I can ever laugh about it.

sazanami ga sarau you ni  hakanaku kieta koi
itami ga kakokei ni  kawatte mo
     As if washed away by rippling waves, love was fleetingly worn away.
        Even if the pain becomes past tense,

wasurenai (ano niji wo)
wasurenai (ano ai wo)
sou OTONA ni natte mo  nakushitakunai
hashaideta (itsu datte)
nayandeta (ima datte)
mabushisa wa owaranai no
     I won't forget (that rainbow)
        I won't forget (that love)
        Even if I become an adult, I don't want to lose them.
        I was high-spirited (at any time)
        I was distressed (even now)
        the dazzling brightness doesn't end.

Moonlight

Last that ever she saw him,
Carried away by a moonlight shadow.
Passed on worried and warning,
Carried away by a moonlight shadow.
Lost in a riddle that Saturday night,
Far away on the other side.
He was caught in the middle of a desperate fight
And she couldn't find how to push through.

The trees that whisper in the evening,
Carried away by a moonlight shadow.
(Sing a) song of sorrow and grieving,
Carried away by a moonlight shadow.
All she saw was a silhouette of a gun,
Far away on the other side.
He was shot six times by a man on the run
And she couldn't find how to push through.

[ Chorus ]

I stay, I pray
See you in heaven far away.
I stay, I pray
See you in heaven one day.

Four a.m. in the morning,
Carried away by a moonlight shadow.
Watched your vision forming,
Carried away by a moonlight shadow.
Stars roll slowly in a silvery night,
Far away on the other side.
Will you come to terms with me this night,
But she couldn't find how to push through.

[ Repeat Chorus ]

Far away on the other side.

Caught in the middle of a hundred and five.
The night was heavy and the air was alive,
But she couldn't find how to push through.

Carried away by a moonlight shadow.
Carried away by a moonlight shadow.
Far away on the other side.
But she couldn't find how to push through.

25TH June -1st July:::BANGALORE

Bang...Lore......lol....
Dis time v'd been 2 bangalore for an entire week....N it was the most memorable time of my life till date......even better than Goa(:() sorry 2 say so...!!!

We'd been 2 Mysore(Brindavan Garden, Mysore palace, Chamundeshwari, Nandi Temple, Tipu Sultan's Summer Palace), IIM-B(Yucks....they made us suffer the most aweful time...(bloody suckers)...newaz, INFOSYS....(just 2 good 2 b in INDIA!!!!), ISRO(just 2 cool and awe inspiring), ISKCON temple(a real Beauty...n Yummy[d food corner there, hehehe]), Lalbaug, Vishweshwaraiya Musuem(an eye-opener to science), HAL...from where we saw a beautiful sight...airplanes taking flight and landing....Wooooooosssssssssshhhhhhh[here i mean it took my breath away]).

The most important thing when u go to someplace new is where you stay...n my god, this time we were really given a Feast of Life!...The Hotel was toooo good, especially the food. Too good to be true. They provided us with the most mouth watering delicacies whenever we returned back to the hotel dreaming of delicacies as those-Punjabi, Chinese, South Indian, Sweet Dishes, Ice-creams(provided in unlimited Quantities)!!!

We absolutely, thoroughly, totally, completely enjoyed BANGALORE!!!!
I still kinda miss it as if i had been living there ever since. Somethings i did here regularly seem to be new...seems i became alive Anew!!!

After we returned, the greatest realization hit us...V r in THIRD YEAR...5th sem...So soon!!! 2 Years have just flown by...n with such a sweet ending to it!!!:):)

Three Cheers 2 Bangalore, UMIT-CSI and last but not the least-CST-2...umm no CST-3!!!!

watashi no Ai

ame ni nureta hoho wa namida no nioi ga shita yasashii manazashi no tabibito	The faint scent of tears On my rain soaked cheeks The warm look on the face Of travelers
shizuka ni hibiiteru natsukashii ongaku omoidasenai kioku samayou	The music from our childhood Faintly echoes in the background The memories I hopelessly try to remember Wander aimlessly
yume wa tobitatsu no chiisana tsubasa de omoi no kienai basho made futari de tooi umi wo sora wo koete	But with these tiny wings, launched by my dreams Over distant oceans and skies We'll soar together To a place where memories never fade
kurai yoru no naka de watashi wo terashiteru yasashii manazashi no anata ni aitai...	You light up the way for me In the darkness of night Oh, that warm look On your face I miss you so much

Silver dew

Silver Dew
A giant stag, a sandy road
I follow them - an open gate
Gold flowers in a golden bowl
There's only one more step to take
A golden bar moves into sight unstoppable in this terrain
Six-petalled flowers multiply
A golden pattern on a plane
A crystal window up above
Which opens onto pristine sky I see one tree, a fertile palm
Its fronds like open arms on high
No clouds above it, just the sky
An emerald, shading into blue
From source unseen, a healing rain
This softly falling silver dew

24 things to remember

Twenty-Four Things to Always Remember & One Thing To Never Forget
Your presence is a present to the world

You're unique and one of a kind

Your life can be what you want it to be

Take the days just one at a time.

Count your blessings, not your troubles

You'll make it through whatever comes along

Within you are so many answers

Understand, have courage, be strong.

Don't put limits on yourself

So many dreams are waiting to be realized

Decisions are to important to leave to chance

Reach for your peak, your goal, your prize.

Nothing wastes more energy than worrying

The longer one carries a problem

The heavier it gets

Don't take things too seriously

Live a life of serenity

Not a life of regrets.

Remember that a little love goes a long way

Remember that a lot goes forever

Remember that friendship is a wise investment

Life's treasures are people together.

Realize that it is never too late

Do ordinary things in an extraordinary way

Have health, hope, and happiness

Take the time to wish upon a star.
And don't ever forget

For even a day

How very special you are.

This poem was written by Douglas Pagels

GOA

Had been 2 Goa for literally two days......But By lord, they were d days i'll not forget...at least for this year......
Beautiful Place and my dreamland....i'll call it so coz of its greenery, preserved history and yeah...last but not the least..BEACHES!!!!!! AWESOME, absolutely haven for d tired souls and spirits...like us Engineers...oh yeah... ANYDAY
One special experience i had as the one when we went to the Aguada Fort...situated at a strategic location, it really was one of my memorable events...n yea...a lil scary too!!!
We were making our way up towards the top of the fort, an open area surrounded by the sea on three sides. The climb was a narrow road, sloping. On my right was the ground and on the other was the sea, though there was a wal between me and the sea...
As i was making my way up....OOps...i tried, tried and tried hard...but no...i couldnt get my eyes to keep looking at something else...i kept glancing at the ground, as we ascended...(M pretty scared of ascending heights) The way scrolled like i was sitting still in a train and the scenery was passing by me...It made me go all tizzy...ouch...i even was about to slip...Luckily i held my friend's hand, who, fortunately isnt scared of heights. Even then, i felt tizzy...n it would have worsened if i had kept my eyes closed...i did dat a few times when i realized that it was DAMN DANGEROUS...
My heart was pounding, i felt as if i would fall down any moment, when, the terrace like plain arrived...Whoosh......but then i had to climb up a small height to that...i did put my leg forward...and suddenly i felt that i had lost my balance....but then, DJ saved me, coz she was holding my hand!!! Thanx Babe!! When we went up to the place, i was relieved....but not scared anymore....cause now the heights had no effect on me.......
Dat was the pic, which was taken after this........:)

GRIP...get one on your life

A beautiful Japanese poem, translated for representing Life and Our paths...
Scattered about are seven purple stars
Thoughts are brought together by each,
crushing our cry out for love
Unable to escape from it,
we cling to our dreams
We won't lose anymore to the everyday trickery
Wake up right now
Soon we seem to be surrounded
By the REAL world choking us
Your important person...is who?
In the luxury world,
shards of eternity are appearing and disappearing
Touch and seize it,
now let's precisely walk this way
"Without regret" we advanced to our destination
Will we laugh? Will we cry?
Will we be happy? Will we be unhappy?
Afterall now, yet I still don't understand
In the future you start to change;
don't falter
That's life's essence
We're living just barely,
we sent our answer
Even if it's different, and gives the wrong impression
But it's a powerful hope
Until that day you become the real thing
In this cruel world,
love's bud will probably be smashed
Touch and seize it,
we now will engrave it firmly
Wake up right now
Soon we seem to be surrounded
By the REAL world choking us
Your important person...is who?
In the luxury world, shards of eternity are appearing and disappearing
Touch and seize it,
now let's precisely walk this way
In order to smile in the end,
we now walk precisely this way.....

Aims?

Is it so philosophical? None in the world is for you, nothing in this world is yours?
Your soul, your strength, your thoughts, your body, your voice, your conscience is this all what belongs to the individual really? How can something be as cruel as that? Why did God create humans? What is humanity? What is LOVE??? WHAT is Brotherhood? What is relationships? What is friendship?
Are these mere illusions created by us to keep ourself happy? Do these ideas just act like a Mirage when we think we’re alone and pull us out? Then, what is the aim of this life? Why do we still go on? Somewhere or the other, in the corner of every individuals mind is this same thought that I AM ALONE. Then why do we seek eachother’s company?
If there’s going to be no use, no result, no future to OUR-self when we die, then why do we live? What is our aim?
All the creations, inventions are merely to keep us happy…In the end, WE ALL LOOK ONLY FOR ONE AND ONLY ONE THING….PEACE AND QUIET, SATISFACTION. Are we really able to achieve them by the means we resort to today, have resorted in the past and will in the future? Can we really understand the REAL MEANING BEHIND OUT LIFE? What is the main aim of our life? Does everybody born on this planet get an insight to this at some point or the other in life? Or do we really fritter away in order to run away from the duty we have been assigned to? What duty? Who assigns this duty? IS there really a GOD? Is there really a being who can control us and our fates? What is the AIM of Humans? What do we really want? What is life?
All the questions are futile…because we can never find an answer to it……that is why, I guess, no one ever thinks about it, if they do, they try and distract themselves…

Bold enemies

Pitter patter, snipper-scamper,
Sound their footfalls,
Squeak-squeak, Chee-Chee
Sound their voices, an enemy.

The bags they tear,
The mess they make,
The risks for food they can take,
Though every step doused with fear,
Bring them near, oh so near.

They nibble and chew,
Food that is stale…and wholesome too,
But this is a havoc,
We cannot deal with,
So we decide to
Deal with them fast and quick.

A trap is set, of wires and mesh,
With food, so welcome for their taste.
Snap, it shuts when they’re in.
And we scream,
“The rat is in! The rat is in!”

So in this first attempt,
Success we achieve,
Thus in our contempt,
Humanity and Animosity we deceive.

Left in the open, far from its previous shelter,
It finds its way, running helter-skelter,
To fill its belly with food, to last
Masses of its kind, growing too fast!


(-haha...well first hand experience does it all for writing sucha poem!)

My late dog-Snoopy

As I think of those days,
I think it was a phase,
Of brightness and light,
Just like on a full moon night.

For all that while,
Like amidst all pile,
Of sorrows and joys,
You made us smile,
With all your fuss and noise.

Your small little eyes,
Were beads of life,
They put a grip of vice,
On my heart, as I reminiscise.

Your curly little tail,
Pointed little ears,
Soft furry, proportionate body,
Was just like a parody…of perfection.

My dearest Handsome dog,
In my mind, clouds fog,
As I wrote ‘WAS’,
In a poem of ‘U’.

Your life was the best ideal
For all who shall believe it real,
As a symphony of affection and devotion
And our Good Lord’s Best Creation.

(-composed by ANANYA)

Experience

I looked to my right,
I looked 2 my left,
I looked to my right,
And crossed the crowded lane,
This is how can with great negligence,
Achieve the “Essence of E,
Summed as EXPERIENCE.

Experience can be in Life,
Experience can be in death,
Experience can be in strife,
Experience can be anywhere met.
Experience is always good,
Remains hiding under a hood,
Acting like the Wolf, Bold and Cruel,
Waiting to eat The Red-riding hood…not gruel.
Experience can be enlightening,
Experience can be frightening,
Experience can be with the dear,
Experience makes one’s vision clear.
Experience has the truth that none can posses,
For one it can be thorns,
For other the beautiful roses.
Experience brings things never foretold,
For Experience has the strength to wrap you
In Sheets of gold.
Experience can bring you the prosperity and fame,
Experience can show you,
How to keep winning,
When you find, life is a game.

Experience is the fact of life,
It sometimes teaches one,
Giving them painful cuts
Like With a very sharp knife.
How experience can help can never be told,
With it however,
Your life, Oh Human,You can remold.
-Composed by Ananya.

Niobe-representive of Mumbai's Spirit!

When the snow melted,
It crept away from the sage plant.
Some of its leaves had blackened from frost.

They curled beneath themselves,
Grating their veins
Against jagged teeth of a leaf's edge,
Spines hunched like old women,
Crackling with sobs.

Still, the gray robes' shadows
Must have belied some hidden well,
Because the lines of ice blurred like melting stone.
Amber ran liquid from the eyes of trees,
Stirring a twitch of dragonflies.
-a poem by Sarah Nicolazzo