Save Me!

Title: Jem - Save Me lyrics Save me save me save me wooh I've gotta stop my mind Working overtime It's driving me insane It will not let me live Always so negative It's become my enemy Save me ah ah save me ah ah save me ah wooh Save me ah ah save me ah ah save me ah wooh Why would I think such things Crazy thoughts have quick wings Gaining momentum fast One minute I am fine The next I've lost my mind To a fake fantasy And none of these thoughts are real So why is it that I feel So cut up and so bad I need to take control Coz my mind is on a roll And it isn't listening to me Save me ah ah save me ah ah save me ah wooh [thinking and thinking] Save me ah ah save me ah ah save me ah wooh [thinking and thinking] Mirror mirror on the wall Who's the dumbest of them all Insecurities keep growing Wasted energies are flowing Anger, pain and sadness beckon Panic sets in in a second Be aware it's just your mind And you can stop it anytime Save me ah ah save me ah ah save me ah wooh [thinking and thinking] Save me ah ah save me ah ah save me ah wooh [thinking and thinking] Ok so here we go If it works I'll let you know One two three I say stop

You Raise me Up!

For you only, jaanu! Title: Westlife - Raise Me Up lyrics When i am down and all my souls surround me, and troubles come and my heart burden me, and i am still am waiting here in the silence, until you come and sit awhile with me you raise me up so i can stand on mountains, you raise me up to walk on stormy seas, i am strong when i am on your shoulders, you raise me up to more than i can be (Instrumental Music) you raise me up so i can stand on mountains, you raise me up to walk on stormy seas, i am strong when i am on your shoulders, you raise me up to more than i can be (music dies then) you raise me up so i can stand on mountains, you raise me up to walk on stormy seas, i am strong when i am on your shoulders, you raise me up to more than i can be you raise me up so i can stand on mountains, you raise me up to walk on stormy seas, i am strong when i am on your shoulders, you raise me up to more than i can be you raise me up to more than i can be.

Today was my first day at work!

Today I started working! :)

I am so lucky that I have my blog to express my feelings to! :) Dear blog, I wish I could tell you that very minute how excited but still nervous I was while going there. I tried to be calm but I couldnt. I thought it was because I dint talk to someone but its alright. Life's most important paths have to be travelled alone, to face your own experiences. :)

So..Today was my 1st day at work. :) This is a topic I'll love to talk about. I taught 8th std in the morning, n man what a group of monkeys and blatant idiots! But they are teenagers and I remember what fun days they were when I was their age! It was a bit boring after that. But after Lunch time, I loved every moment of it because I met the best group. the 4th A division! They are absolutely great! A bit irritating but I loved them. They are well behaved when I ask them to be, a bit demanding and naughty and a fact that they liked me and told me so on teh face, :) I loved it! ANd the last but not the least!!!! the 1st std kids!!!!!!!!Ohhhhhh so sweeettt so adorable!!!!!!!! It was fun and I will try to enjoy every bit of this time I spend there! God help me please!!

Confused Soul

Today I am thoroughly confused and in a state of conflicting emotions!

I want to change for good. I am wanted to be changed. But still, I should be myself. Why is it so difficult? Why does my every action get misinterpreted? Every action has its meaning but why is it always taken to be negative or offensive?

I was told that I should change. I said I would. But when i try to, I shouldnt change and be what I am, is what I get told. What does it mean? Balance between the 2? Is it so simple that I take a weighing machine and keep adding removing stones till the weigh becomes balanced? Is it this simple? It is getting difficult for me, day by day.

Also, evryone says, I am not in touch. No communication. Nobody tried to ask me why it is so. Just plain blame or saying its reduced...I am depressed. I cant think anything good at all. All simple and happy emotions, positive emotions are like the Red Cloth for a Deranged bull. I run at it as fast as I can but it turns up somewhere else, and I am only chasing, never reaching! IF I do, I make a mess of it, like the bull!

Why do I feel so alone when I have people I want with me? Why do I behave so negative when there's nothing negative as such in my life? Why? I know the answer to it. I am a psycho. Thats' what I am. I need treatment. But who'll believe me? Its tearing my inside, my soul; being so unable, being so failing, being the loser and unsuccessful individual. I just pray that I either lose all my senses or I just come back to normal, but not forgetting what I have felt in these days!

The roots I have to investigate...provided I have the energy!

Silence is golden

Realizations are like lightening, arent they? They strike suddenly and when they do, they leave you feeling burnt crisp and with a sense of insecurity or of being suddenly naked in the open!

Actions speak louder than words. In the past 2 days I have seen and experienced it so much, that I feel that a small action from me will be misinterpreted by anyone.

Obama Bows to Emperor Akihito. US created such a big issue out of it. That man is dynamic and to maintain relations with all the countries, he needs to follow certain norms or at least his own mind. If he really feels that he must do some action, that's it! Why sit and chew over it? When it doesnt mean anything but respect why should this bow be interpreted as something very lowly! I cant fathom to understand the mental makeup of the Americans in this particular matter! Is their self-respect actually an Ego? Just being the Superpower, does it place them and in turn their Leader on top of the world? If the Leader himself can be respectful or at least show that he is, why comment on it? They should feel proud to be lead by someone who knows how to behave and where!

If this isnt enough an example, take our Master Blaster Sachin Tendulkar! His simple but magnanimous statement that 'Mumbai belongs to India' was given a wrong meaning by the Shiv Sena Leader. Yaar, If Mumbai doesnt belong to India, what else will Mumbai belong to then? Mumbai is a part of India and this statement is as true as the difference between a Man and a Woman! Why do people have to take offense of statements or simple words said by someone? Why should actions be said to have underlying meanings when they really werent? It is because the people who think that way, behave the way they interpret things! The people who say 'That really means something else..' themself do the same when they say so many things! Cant we be simple and Non-manipulative humans?

My actions and words, too, have unwanted effects at the wrong times! At times the action when not expected, is given a meaning which is far from what could be imagined, let alone that it simply wasnt supposed to happen! For eg, if while setting the dining table for dinner I happen to put down the plate with a slightly greater sound than usual, why should it imply that I am angry or dissatisfied especially when there has been a heated discussion? It can simply have been a slip of hand due to which the plate banged on it? If i had wanted to bang it I would have made a larger sound!

I really cant fathom to understand why any other meaning be taken when it has a meaning so simple and so straightforward? Or is it that, for man, in general, the thought process has gone crooked? Is it that Man cannot think simple and straight anymore?

Now, I have decided to try and implement this permanently. Keep silent. Silence is Golden and Virtue. Irrespective of anything I shall keep silent, unless absolutely necessary.

There are so many things I have to do that it gets to me! This pressure is heavy, but I guess I have to handle it. Nobody can do it for me nor come to me and say, 'I'll be with you when you do it' It just wont happen. I am my own friend, I am my own helper. I am my own teacher.

So henceforth, I will do my best, never to say much. I shall strive my best to hold emotions inside and also try not to write. Silence, indeed is Golden.

what's this? Me? I Me Myself.

These past few weeks have been so very difficult, different, unexpected and modifying that now I realize significance of some events!

There are many things going on inside me..many thoughts, feelings, ideas. They are now personal. Personal as in, completely ONE person oriented. That one person is I me myself!

I am seeing things, doing things, feeling things like I do normally, but it doesnt much show. Whatever I think, I just cant talk it out anymore. I cant even ask for something the way I used to. Also getting used to everything everyone says. If someone doesnt like my attitude, my anger I just keep silent. Being so very unable to do anything that everyone expects, is something I am getting used to.

If they get angry with me, I can do nothing but bear it. If I am just there, on the side doing nothing even that is alright. I am getting used to the routine of being with only myself, nearly 85% of the time.

I suppose it all is good. Whether I get to be with others or not, it shouldnt affect me. I hope I dont get used to it if nobody talks to me at all! Of course, why should anyone spend precious time on me when there are other important things to be done for their own self? Yes, I accepted this now and i am coming to terms with it.

So long as I can do and do what has to be done, said and felt, its alright. Its the best if I am my own best friend, isnt it?

I hope I grow strong like this. I want this constant movement inside my mind to stop, so I can be neutral to anything. I will struggle to achieve it. Nobody can stop me now.

	I was so happy, you were laughing With a smile that melts everything away
	Spring is still far away, inside the cold earth, Waiting for the time to sprout
	For instance, even if today is painful And yesterday's wounds remain I want to believe that I can free my heart and go on
	I cannot be reborn But I can change as I go on, so Let's stay together always
	Smile only at me and touch me with those fingers This simple desire is everlasting
	I want things to be simple Let's finally get across this sea of mournful sorrow
	For instance, even if today is painful Someday it will become a warm memory If you leave everything up to your heart
	I understand the meaning our living here It is to know the joy of having been born Let's stay together always
	For instance, even if today is painful Someday it will become a warm memory If you leave everything up to your heart
	I understand the meaning our living here It is to know the joy of having been born Let's stay together always

What's the issue??

Here I am sitting at the computer at 1am in morning typing away a blog, which shouldnt really be written!!What compels me i dont know, but I must. Thats the only way I can vent out my feelings.

I received these 2 absolutely sentimental but true messages from my 2 friends.What made me read them now in the dead of the night, although, I dont know. Perhaps the current issue that weighs on my mind..its as usual my fault!

Shall I put it out here?I am abit skeptical about this since morning. But still I want to take it out so I can get sleep and not be sleepless, like I am for the past some days.

Expressing love means differently to different people. The message my friends sent me, expresses this so justly. Its as follows:

A Beautiful Truth:
Ppl love you all the time,
Its just that they cant love you the way you understand love.
They love you the way they know how to love!

So beautiful. It literally was making me toss and turn on my poor bed right now.

My way of loving.. I realize now is very weird. I demand too much and give too little. I know, I want to change, but a change in a person like me isnt going to be overnight! But still, can expressing love also be so suffocating to the other person? Is trying to give it in your way a fault to be angered at and so despicable that it makes the other person shrink away from you to get their own space or make the person stay away from you or avoid you so they can try to get on terms with it??

Yes, my current situation is like this. This is what I have been making my important people feel about me! Initialy my love feels like cotton candy, so sweet, fulfilling, warm. Gradually it suffocates people with my attention and smothers them till they cant breathe. Its possibly the reason that people happen to distance themselves from me. Does love also need to be changed so people dont feel like that about you? Does it change after a time when you have faced some unwanted and unexpected disappointments?

Ohh...Its just struck me. Yes That's it. Its a kind of payback? no. Its retaliation! Yep. Thats the word. One small mistake can be so very effective and affective?

Hmm..Simple psychology I guess. Some deep buried disappointment comes out this way. Human mind is so very sensitive, aint it? It pukes out al the negative feelings on its own, without making its conscious mind realize it!

Dwelling on the past is what human mind does subconsciously. I maybe an exception because currently I think a lot about it...but I am kinda doing this for the few past years...habit is what it is for me, eh?

For a person like me, impatience is merely puking out the negativity. I cant bear any sad, angry or guilty feelings inside. Add lonely to it too. When such situations happen, I become so lonely sad and angry that I just cant help but keep chewing my poor lower lip and remember my past and majorly the mistakes I made. And this reminds me of some people who were in my life, who were so important to me but cant be with me anymore, either because they're not alive or just stepped out from my life!

Controlling anger is one heck of a job, however, I must admit. I am working hard on it, and you cant imagine but I really feel I must improve more. Doing or feeling this makes me realize, what angry people are really going through and what they will miss out!

Anger, I thought about this too, and realized that its nothing but a few over-pumped air balloons called Ego. I really cant recall anybody who did not get angry over reasons which are really selfless. Some way or the other they are related to the inner-self. And I am one of the examples in this category even now...I really must do something about it, lest I lose everything important!

The one fear that cages me about my anger is that I will lose someone important to me bacuse of it. Maybe its because I think that way. But if I can bear anger without getting angry...lolz...(become a punching bag sounds more like it..poor punching bags!) then I will have achieved something. But i pray that i odnt start growing indifferent to those who mean to me in this process!!!

Hushh...dont know why, but now i feel lighter in mind! apart from being eaten alive by mosquitos, i feel real good! But damn, I gotta go else I'll contract malaria! Its been 30 mins since bearing this torture of mosquito based bites to release these pent-up emotions! Hope I can rest easy now!

Cheerios!!
:)

Last but not the least, the 2nd msg is as follows:

There are 3 special people in our life-
Someone we love but have to hate.
Someone we hate but cant live without,
And
Someone we cant live without but have to let go!

P.S: Im still mulling over this message. I guess thinking about who comes in which category!!!!:-s...*biting nails over it!

Psycho...Mental...so correct

I recently read a book which had in depth study about psychology of a person. It was engrossing. Reading it made me realize psychology is a study which is too vast!! no human can completely understand another...unless its a clone...well, there too, differences will occur. In short, Nobody can understand anybody the way they want to be understood.

The definition of Understanding and being understood itself are so individual, that if you think from every person's point of view, you'll realize and say, 'Yeah, that's correct but so am I!'

What should we really do? How to achieve one-ness with another individual?

Solution is very simple. Get into the other person's shoes, everytime something happens!

Though its so easy to say it, achieving it is so difficult!!Ask me! i understand every philosophical thought or theory, but practically I am a failure at each and every attempt to being able to act humanely!

Violence, Ego, Anger, Frustration, Disappointment, Depression, Self-Pity, Inferiority Complex...lolzz...these are negative thoughts every individual has. How much ever may the person make a show of his/her happiness, excitement, optimism, these devils always exist inside.

You know, at times, the best example to study is your own self. I am doing that and currently nothing but devils exist inside me!

Being violent inspite of knowing its wrong, being angry over petty issues, treating others badly knowing that it is selfish and wrong, this is what I am experiencing. Voicing these to any elders will alert them and make them think something is wrong with me. But is it really? I love to think that something is wrong with me. Actually, something is indeed. What is it?

Self Control. I know the answer to my problem! there! But the question is how do I resolve it?My impatience is great these days. I cant sit still for much long. I need to be engaged in something constantly else, my mind is a devil's workshop!

For this nobody can help me. Nobody. Emotionally im unstable. Physically im alright. Spiritually i am strong but impatient and now-a-days a bit angry.

Everyone says Enjoy yourself and be happy. What do they expect me to do, however?

See! The complete example of how unstable I have become is in this post itself. What do I do? To bear with me, has God really created him? Does he really have strength to bear me?No. I know it too well. I know myself too well. I may handle myself well enough, but what about him? Even if I want him to bear with me at some point or some issue or some specific time, some day or the other, that tolerance will vanish! He wont change. He cant change himself for a petty creature like me!Pah! What am I?Some great Queen??!!lOlzzz.

So I have to change? I cant even give the excuse,"I am like this, bear with me!" If i do. i always get rebuked by being told, "Then change yourself! Dont say you cant do it or you're like this!" Even after I warn myself about my negative points and try to work on them, they catch up with me again and give me a harder bash on the heart! So I myself am not able to change for the better!

My ego and selfishness have increased! But why, I cant fathom to understand!

Am i so complex that I myself cant understand myself completely? Will all my dreams be bashed and crushed because I behave like the way I do now? Do I really behave so intolerably to others?? Cant I ever change? Wont I?

Do I need treatment? Am I so bad? Am I so weird that people cant understand me? Is it why I am named Ananya(Unique)?

Lyrics with my feelings

Dedicated to the one person, to whom I want to convey what he means to me!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YrfbjIW75S8

Kimi Ga inai Mirai
(Future without you)

Lyrics:

Mamoru beki mono nante
Nayamu made mo naku
Hitotsu shikanakatta
There is only one thing
That you should instinctively protect
Sakebi koe no kodama
Munashiku hibiita fukai mori no oku ni
The echoes of yelling
Sounding hollowly, deep within the woods
Namida wo koraerarela ryuu wa
Kasaneta yubi no nukumori no sei
The reason to be able to hold the tears back
is the warmth of our entwined fingers
Kimi ga inai mirai
Imi nado nai mirai
The future without you
Is a future without meaning
Nidoto hanashitari wa shinai kara
We will never part again
Kimi to nozamu sekai
Mitakoto nai sekai
I will face the world with you
A world I've never seen before!!
Jikuu wo koete
Haruka tabi suru bokura
Through time and space
Together, we'll travel far

Lost...like Atlantis...Crippled Fist!

This is going to be a very small business...very small...it is just something i realized with a great shock or ferocity of the subject...

Leo means being really loving and being surrounded by people you love!

Today I realized...struck me with full force...

EVeryone I held dear, I AM LOSING THEM, one by one!

The loss is now bordering to my most personal relations...not there but on the border...btw, Friends come within it or outside?

They say, "friends are light of life"...but it is also said, "In the end...You are only alone...and your own friend..."

I have lost my friends...?equivalent to it...when I lose the sensitivity of my rapport...when it has become so very frozen, irrevocably frozen, ...I think that is what I will say!

Expectations I will have, its my right, after all i am Human! If I try to fulfill expectations of others to my very best, why should i not expect the others from failing to do the same for me?In their own way, yes, but shouldnt it be visible to me, in the least? I might be sounding like the Egoist and "I" factor as they call it in AOL, but, really as an individual, do i not have even that right, to think for some part, of my own self? Only then will I be able to do something for others right?

Lost...till date, count is 3. Each loss inflicting more pain and hurt...ever more so! But, unfortunate as I am, none of them involved will really realize it!!...I really loved them...my friends...:(..:(

I hope the 2 remaining threads....which are my life...I really pray I dont lose them. They day I do lose them also...this blog will never be updated from thence.

my AOL

Lately, life couldnt have been worse! To any outsider, of course, ' It looks, ohh so perfect! Whats the problem? Its all in your mind..'

Thats not what i think about it, unfortunate as it could be!

I did an Art of Living Course last month, August 2009. What the course taught were things, which general and common man needs in daily life, but you know, it might sound like a boast but i feel from inside, that it reminded me of the things i have learnt step by step, but forgotten over the years!

This AOL course, according to my friend, who literally was jumping the couch regarding it being, 'OH SO DAMNN FANTASTIC', being a hard-core critic I will not rate it at that, at all. After all, individual opinions and experiences count!!

Unfortunate as it could be, the timing of the course and an incident in my life clashed..so bad that It will reallly take a lot of time for me to get out of it? Or really do i need to?

But ever since then, I found myself absolutely inadequate..Inadequate and improper, miserable and irritating! yes! Irritating is what I am to myself!

Why you ask? Its merely because, I have failed to do anything correct!Say, Do, Feel...everything wrong!! I always end up hurting!!! And hurting too close people of mine!!!!

I cant do anything?I try to be strong but that strength is failing me...its proving inadequate...im behaving like a loser but when you only lose, what else can you be?You cant hold your head high and show off your Loss!....at least i cant!!

I wonder what depths of the pit this is going to take me...down the hill..yes down the hill..but im just praying and hoping that it involves me alone...no 1 else...coz getting hurt is something i can bear but seeing others hurt, will kill me alive!

This Act of Living of mine...I pray...ends soon...

2 points to discuss...2 points to change!

Point of discussion :1
Whew! Its already 2009...the year i shall graduate! Lord, this is really fast...rapid....unexpectedly fast!
I remember it as if it was just yesterday, when we all friends...DRAMAS used to discuss, how far away the day when we will graduate is! Lolzz...and look its nearly here!

Well, speaking of that let's get to the point.

Here i am doing a project with 2 of my friends and colleagues, for BPCL. For any engineer, the system is a pretty simple one to develop. Its purely theoretical, practical and technical, thought the system Ideology is now fast fading off.

What we are designing is a Software based application, for maintaining Electrical Complaints...i.e. complaints for maintaining electrical components. The system itself is a simple idea. Developing it should be a piece of cake...Lolz..but that is not so!

Facing problems is enough while designing such a system that the problem that we cant proceed sits right in front of us, with its legs crossed, as if saying: U shall not proceed further.

It becomes difficult when you encounter a problem, think over it, break your head, even though you know how to solve it. At times the method of solving it is not the ideal one, you know it and still, in the end, you have no option but to go for it!

The same problem i faced while doing the design pages, in ASP.NET. I intended to use Multiviews and Views, so that the navigation part of pages, reduces load and is on the same page. My idea was to design a page itself and retrieve it inside a View, so that the navigation from a Treeview, on clicking will direct the page to the particular view with the desired page.

For eg. if i were to design a page for viewing a report in a view, with id=View1, on clicking Reports in the treeview, i should be redirected to that View, which will fetch a page which has been requested for..i.e. for Reports!

Seems that the idea is not for the keeps! Its not suitable enough or is incorrect to implement. I did not find a single solution or method that could help me to do this! I tried to apply all my knowledge that i had and even searched for stuff online, but in Vain! :(

I finally had to give up the idea and use simple Switch case so that different parts i designed in the views could get displayed! The problem occured when for every view, the display depended on the location of the view...i.e if the View was at the bottom of the Multiview, the page too, would display it at the bottom of the page!!!!!! This is pathetic! I am not able to find a solution for it!

I gave up...thinnking maybe, some sort of miracle will happen and some day it will strike me. As of now, that Miracle hasnt yet occured.

Then began Database related work! The major goof-up i faced here was, that instead of installing Mixed-Authentication, i selected Windows Authentication and messed up with the SA login! Now the problem i face is that I cant do certain things in the database! So here i am, uninstalling and re-installiung the SQL server 2005!! I really hope it gets installed without any glitch else, the old error, always faced: SQL.CAB not found will pop up and ill start cursing myself for having uninstalled the SQL Server!!!!!!!!!!!!.........Pleassee god!!!

In addition to the problem of SQL authentication, the Database Connectivity with the VS 2005 also fails! Lolzz...i really hope the Installation goes off successfully!!

Point of discussion:2

Music is such a vast subject that i neednt explain about it from the beginning. Being a maharashtrian, i have an open mind towards music of different cultures and languages. I find it extremely thrilling to be exposed to any new Genre of music...So far, I have Learnt Hindustani Classical music and hold a degree in it since the past 6 years, but have nothing significant to be mentioned regarding my achievements in it for the past 5 years! :( that's the point which disappoints my parents i guess.

But, i really enjoy listening to any music. Light music(hindi and marathi), semi-classical, Classical(indian, western) all appeal to me. Rock, Pop, Jazz are obviosly the music of the current decade since, every next album has some kind of Pop or Rock or Jazz in it. Its the lyrics that matter to me alongwith the tune, when it comes to Non-classical type of music.

If the tune is suitable to the lyrics, the song becomes mine...i can literally say, the song gets imprinted in my head. :)

Right now, i have taken a decision really important to my life and career too. How good or bad it will be turn out to be, i have no idea, but, the difficulty i faced in taking the decision was like: Take one and regret on the other!

:(...dunno...im trying to cope with the other as yet, i face just difficulty in doing it! I hope to achieve the success i had thought of, and the opportunity i have decided to take, i pray it doesnt let me down...ill try my best at it...
So, pray for me will you?? :)

Solution to arrive at solutions!

All that you want for is always in the plate before you. But the trick is to eat it without touching with your hands and spilling it!

Unruly and unclean ways to do this, will be to simply put your mouth into it, and Mess your face, clothes, but at the same time, enjoy the careless happiness that you experience in being so very...say wat...ummm..indisciplined!! Haha!

How to get to it, in a very precise, clean and solvable manner, is to be thought out very carefully.

• You can simply ask someone to feed you! As simple as that.
  

But then, wont that be dependancy? To maintain your own self respect, it is what you wont follow!

Umm...what else could be the way out?

• You could even design a complex robotic system, that will do everything that you want it to do, i.e. Train it with Neural Networks, make it understand the step by step process of eating, different ways in which you could want to eat.

But lord! Wont that be a little too complex and tedious...Ohh...Tedious should be the Understatement of the Blog! Lolzz, your entire life will get spent and at the very end of your days, will you try to eat from the hands of such a robot!

Think...more...much better?! C'mon we have more wits than that!

• UPS students will give us witty answers like: I would stop eating and only opt for drinking!
  

Oh Gosh, How very boring! The sound of the challenge itself is pretty exciting. We need to think of a perfect solution, whch wont take much time, and will help us achieve our goal. Or maybe something, which will take a bit of sometime but will give us much better results.

That is how, leaders or for that matter, Successful Leaders and Managers think of problems. A set of Challenges, which on overcoming gives the satisfaction to have achieved the right sense of authority, priority, perspicability and innovation!

The solution to our problems lies not in the correct method, but the correct way of thinking. This way of thinking gives us the strength and courage, determination and definity, ability to develop new ideas or modify old ones. The way of thinking, the approach, is the solution to the solution of problems, and that is what the Understanding of our Inner Self Gives us. Inner Self is the divinity and it is reached only by Meditating, for even, 5 minutes of the day!

SO Get up, Meditate, Understand and Solve!

Twists and Turns

Its just a matter of days when Change stops evading you and you'rte face to face with the very change you were desiring for, unknowingly, unwittingly...:D
blah blah blah...i've been crappy and written all dat mushy mushy stuff abt bng alone, depressed...lolzzz!!!
wat i realize now is life is always there to give a you a right direction!
you wish something dearly...from d bottom of ur heart and some day u'll get t...unexpectedly.
just wish hope and forget!
hehe...newaz the main topic today isnt this stuff!!! :D its d biggest change :------ IM SPECTACLED!!!!
LOLZZZ
a spectacular event...bespectacled gal dat i hv become now, i really dunn expect that i shall change, though i can feel myself changing bit by bit!!! :D
they say, looking at the world through glasses is different...n how very true it is!!! It looks comepletely different!
The lens makes all the difference...gehehehe, wearing them though, still seems a pain to me...not in d literal sense, but just to look at an object at a distance, i need to depend on smthing inanimate or non living!!!! oops...an undeniable, initially undogestible fact...but then look at it this way: if u can love sm1 and say u cant live without them or get completely dependant on sm individual for any kind of help be it economic, personal, professional, social...etc! then y cant we depend on smthing so very trivial and fragile like a pair of lenses embedded in a simple frame so u can look at things clearly and better!!!its gn2 b our own benefit!!! ;)
So, Spectacularity of the Specular phenomena of being Bespectacled, is Special and Spectacular!

HAPPY BDAY TO ME!! ....

Life has shown me three different levels of Important People in my life!
The most important which are my family...Mom, Dad, Grandparents,Siblings, Cousins.
The next level is for friends, and Loved ones...yes...someone we love comes at level 2 of importance...because...though we say, we love them so much...our heart thinks of our parents too!
Third level is...someone who u arent so close to...but still think of them...as sm1 who is nice n good and worthy of ur care.

I hv sm people on d 2nd level...so impt and so very grown...just wanted to be wid them...nothing more than sweet friendship, coz i knw dats d best i can get..n i was happy wid it...but they hv done d same....stranded me alone...in a place where i dont know where to go...
i searched for them...in dat hellish desert...called out so loud...but in vain....d rough winds blew ...i fell...scorched in d heat, bruised due 2 the rough lands and sand....i still hoped and waited...waited and waited...
till everything grew dark and cold...n made me realize, i hv to make my own way...my own path.......which was so tough...it teared me up...it made me lose all hope...
but this constant murmur in my mind...which was my friends...my support my strength...made me stand on my feet...n grope in d pitch darkness...n i finally stumbled upon the lost path...i made it...all alone...hurt but grown.

wht important people do to us we dont care...as long as they care...but when they dont care it hurts pains, stings like an old wound getting fresh!
Maybe this is just a phase...but it was a case...it made me grow, it made me strong, its making me forget ALL MY WRONGS!...maybe dis heart will forgive...but never will it forget...

D most important year...so that i never forget...
Happy Bday bby...im ur best frend alone...so stop ur stupid groan! :D
hehhe
happy bday to me...happy bday to me...
but still...god...pls...bless them and forgive me!

BDAY GIFT

21 yrs on earth...WOW!
This is going to be a new start for me??!!!

This b'day i shall remember always...
Coz of the Gift...parting of ways.
The losses are heavy,
But it taught to smile.
It has taught to be cheerful,
It has taught to see positivity in the darkness...
It has taught to be strong when the loss is heavy.
It has taught to carry on and leave behind d debris,
It has taught to live and let live.
It has taught Selflessness
It has taught Selfishness.
It has taught Close ones can be harsh
It has taught Unexpected times are always rash.
It has taught that Laughter is cure to pain
It has taught that Pain isnt the only way to gain.
It has taught that too much happiness and laughter leads to tears
It has taught that these tears are not bad, they are cleansers.
It has taught people dear to you can become dearer,
It has taught that this is so because of love and trust...so pure.
Life isnt so easy
Life isnt so hard either.
Aspect of looking at it is upto you,
The clearing of vision is learned by self...and few!

I still pray for a lot of things,
But have lernt to respect and not expect
As it will result shattering of trust and belief
And then from pain and tears you shall never get relief!

Gift of 21, is great,
Maybe its my fate,
Though its never too late,
I hope...the pain will abate!
Cheerios!
Countdown...3 to go! :D

Saikou No Kataomoi...

Another song i fell in love with...due to the feelings the music stirred in me and the meaning...u'll understand as u read!!Ask me for the song incase u like d lyrics...

SAIKOU NO KATAOMOI-UnRequited Love....

Itsumo sugoku jiyuu na anata wa ima
Kono ame no naka donna yume wo oikaketeiru no
Dokoka de kodoku to tatakai nagara
Namida mo gaman shiterun darou

Normally you were so free in spirit –
What dream might you be chasing after now in this rain?
No matter where you might be battling with loneliness,
You were always holding back your tears, right?

Hitori de mo daijoubu to anata mo watashi to onaji
Toomawari bakari dakedo naze ka kono michi ga suki de
You say “I’ll be all right even when alone.” - just like I do
Despite detours everywhere, for some reason, we have taken to this path

Shiawase da toka ureshii toki wa
Anata no koto wo omoidasu kara
Iro azayaka na kisetsu wa kitto
Kono omoi todokete kureru
In times of happiness or joy,
I’ll remember you
And I am sure that this season, with its vivid colours,
Will convey these feelings of mine to you

Akogare toka suki toka kirai da toka
Sou iu kimochi da to wo dokoka chigaun da keredo
Anata no sono utsukushii nagare ni
Watashi mo nosete hoshii
Longing, liking, or dislike –
Though saying my feelings for you are of those seems somewhat wrong,
I want to follow your beautiful shadow

Aimai na kotoba yori mo kantan na yakusoku yori
Hoshii no wa te no nukumori soshite
Futari dake no toki
More than vague words or simple promises,
What I desire is the warmth of your hand, and
A time only for the two of us

Moshimo anata ga kanashii no nara
Ashita ga sukoshi mienai no nara
Tayotte hoshii watashi wa kitto
Kore kara mo anata mo houmou
If you should feel sad,
Or if tomorrow [the future] can’t be clearly seen,
I, who wish you would rely on me,
Would continue to think of you

Shiawase da toka ureshii toki wa
Anata no koto wo omoidasu kara
Iro azayaka na kisetsu wa kitto
Kono omoi todokete kureru
In times of happiness or joy,
I’ll remember of you
And I am sure that this season, with its vivid colours,
Will convey these feelings of mine to you

Shinjitsu no Uta-Song of Truth

akaku nijimu taiyou wa subete o

terashite kita ima mo mukashi mo

kono yuuyami ni egaiteru souzouwa

hatashite kono te ni oenai mono na no ka?

the crimson-stained sun

has illuminated everything; now and the past

is what i have imagined within this twilight

more than my own hands can accomplish?

motto ima ijou ni  hadaka ni natte

ikite yuku jutsu  oshiete yo

honno sukoshi dake  watashi o yogoshite

sou yatte hitori  kizutsuitari

mawari o nakushita to shite mo

shinjitsu no uta wa kono mune ni nagare


please teach me how to live

a little more vulnerably than i do now

won't you taint me just a little?

that way, even if i get hurt and lose everything around me

this song of truth will flow through my heart

arasoi wa mada tsuzukun darou

dono michi ima ga taisetsu na no sa

gamushara ni natte  miotoshite kita mono

tatoeba dare ka no yasashii hohoemi mo

this dispute will probably go on

about that which is most precious[2]

i've become a rebel, i've overlooked things

even the gentle smiles of strangers

eien o shireba  donna kurayami mo

itami mo itsuka kiete

sou yatte ima wa watashi o yogoshite

zutto mukashi mita tenkuu no shiro ni

itsuka wa  tadoritsukeru

shinjitsu no uta o michishirube ni shite


if eternity knows what manner of darkness

and when pain will vanish,then that way,

you shall taint me

i looked always to yesterday, to the castles in the sky

when will i be able to follow them?

this song of truth shall be my guide

eien o shireba donna kurayami mo

itami mo itsuka kiete

shinjitsu no uta wa kono mune ni nagare


if eternity knows what manner of darkness

and when pain will vanish,

this song of truth will flow through my heart

motto ima ijou ni

watashi o yogoshite

hon no sukoshi dake

watashi o yogoshite

now, please, taint me just a little

please, just taint me, only a little

shinjitsu no uta o  michishirube ni shite

this song of truth shall be my guide

Tunes to Life....

Tap the feet, tap the fingers, hum the tune, swoon in the mood!

Nod your head, sway with the rhythm, fill up your senses, Let down Your DEFENCES!

Moods are what makes us human, aint it? I find this statement quite interesting. Lets check out how, mood and music…M&M relate with us…

Music…music reminds you of notes…music reminds you of rhythm…music remind you of Bach, Beethoven, Bryan Adams, Aatif Aslam…etc etc etc.

Song…say the word…and the most favourite song or the most recent song you liked pops into your head. You start humming it…either, while reading this…or after this…its doubtless! Music makes a very big impact in everybody’s life…on everybody’s mind…

Today just everybody has a device which will give us music…radios, MP3s, iPhones etc. All of them…are a must! Must…as in…one of the most essential things to live…like Oxygen…it is something people are involved in…rated Next to Oxygen’s Importance in life!

Music…the music that appeals to all…its different…it’s a question of tastes…it’s a question of basic nature…it’s a question of moods…

Basically…human moods are only 2…Happiness and Sadness…just that the types vary according to the basic nature of a person.

In Happiness…you will be listening music which is very peppy or dance numbers, something very soulful, something which makes us smile…something which lets us stay happy…keeps us happy!

In times of Sadness…you will be listening to sad numbers, which render meaning of loss, heartbreaks, realizations, “tears”! Even if some peppy number pops up, we change it…to keep constancy in the state of mind…to keep ourselves reminding of the situation…

Its weird…at times, when we laugh, we think of a few phrases which remind us of how happy we are…and in sad times, we think of any line which makes us even sadder…but this shows us how very much Music is the essence of life!

So…music addicts…music lovers and all those who live in music…Keep Enjoying…don’t let the life of Music die!

QUESTIONS FOR GOD!

Goodbye…it is felt deep down…I feel it…deeply, strongly…it drives me crazy…this feeling of being shut out!! Cant react, cant resist, cant reach out…it’s a helpless feeling, a void…loneliness…is what a goodbye does!

Sensitive heart…I have one…sure…over sensitive these days? Am I over-reacting? At times the thought consumes me with guilt…with hatred and an overwhelming sense of stupidity…but am I not to ever be myself? Am I never to be allowed to be someone who expresses emotions? Emotions are the sole players here…rendering me helpless…

Taking Help…speaking out…makes me feel as if im burdening others…the burden I carry is enough…they are enough burdened…why should I add to it?

To change…is scary. Im seeing it closely…change affects others more than yourself…you slip into the changed mode as easily as a glove fits your hand! But…the world…our world around us…the people who are our world…they are hit…bad…Am I hitting out…or being hit? I don’t understand…changes happen in fractions of seconds…within hours…within a single day….changes can be within a year…or continuosly…but how to face it?

Holding strong…like a sturdy wall…requires a goddamn load of courage…Courage? Me? Am I capable? Will courage help me? Will I be able 2 face anything? Or is Courage merely “Ignoring” what you don’t want to face? Ignorance is Bliss? Is it? Or isn’t?

The force…that force…not all believe in…I believe in it…though…at times…it seems in vain. At times it seems the gap will close…ill cross it…the gap between sanctity and peace of mind…but the trust breaks…all hopes crash…is all this just supposed to happen without a break?

End…something that is an Evitable Condition…for life…and “Non-life”! Then y life? End should be specific…not random…it should warn not surprise. Face it? Or Suffer it? How to decide? Isnt it obvious to be reached? Y cnt I accept it…? Y is the End word an End??

Tears…the cleansing solution! Either way…happiness or sadness….Cleansed! Complete…Tears…the friends? Or…Tears…the enemies? Will they just flow out n mean nothing later? Are tears Emotions in Visible form?

Questions…why do I have so many? Why don’t they have answers? What will they fulfill? Questions give answers? Or Questions give rise to Questions? Questions satisfy Curiosity…or arouse it more?

Why does the factor U…return back to I? Why is relation always to myself? Does every situation relate to my life? Does Life try to imitate me or Do I imitate life?

What is Life?...if the end is END!

Jag soona soona

An Absolutely Touching song...

"main taan jiyaan…

na maraan…
haye ve, dass main ki karaan…

dil jude bina hi tutt gaye
hathh mile bina hi chutt gaye
ki likhe ne lekh kismat ne
baar baar ronn akhiyaan
tainu jo naa vekh sakiyaan
kho leya hai yaar khud rabb ne
kattaan main kiven din
teri saun tere bin
main taan jiyaan na maraan"

chhan se jo tute koi sapna, (jag soona soona laage - 2)
koi rahe na jab apna, jag soona soona laage
jag soona soona hai toh yeh kyun hota hai
jab yeh dil rota hai, roye sisak sisak ke hawaayein, jag soona laage
chhan se jo tute koi sapna, (jag soona soona laage - 2)
koi rahe na jab apna, (jag soona soona laage - 2) re
soona laage re

roothi roothi saari raatein, phike phike saare din
viraani si viraani hai, tanhaayi si tanhaayi hai
aur ik hum pyaar ke bin har pal
chhan se jo tute koi sapna, (jag soona soona laage - 2)
koi rahe na jab apna, (jag soona soona laage - 2) re

patthron ki iss nagari mein, pattha chehre, patthar dil
phirta hai maara maara kyun raahon mein tu aawaara
yahaan na hoga kuchh haasil, mere dil
chhan se jo tute koi sapna, (jag soona soona laage - 2)
koi rahe na jab apna, jag soona soona laage
jag soona soona hai toh yeh kyun hota hai
jab yeh dil rota hai, roye sisak sisak ke hawaayein, jag soona laage
chhan se jo tute koi sapna, (jag soona soona laage - 2)
koi rahe na jab apna, (jag soona soona laage - 2) re
soona laage re mohe

Time

Time belongs to you...
U need to understand it...flow with it...
Run with it, walk hand in hand with it...
Even if u dont...its there...by your side always...helping u...hurting u...
To understand time, it takes a long time...at Times, Ages!
Time teaches, time helps,
Time Gives, Time takes,
Time may Forgive...but never Forgets...
Why Does Time never bend for anyone?
Time...i wish u cud b my friend...
Time...u stole much from me, which i can never regain, change!
Study understand and smile with Time,
It will never let you down.
A Stitch in Time Saves Nine,
Time and Tide wait for None,
Its Never too late to do what you want,
Are all calls of Time to you, oh man
Respond to it Right,
Against time Then you'll never Need to Fight
And so you will see, Your Future So BRIGHT!

Energy

Watashi No Enagee

"MY...ENERGY"

(---for you...."Honey"!)

motto motto chikaku ni kanjitetai yo
kimi no sono taion wo

I want to feel it even closer, closer
That warmth of yours

hirahira kaze ni mau kareha no sei de
itsumo to chigau kono saka
kimi no deatta toki ni wa
tada midori no TONNERU ga tsuzuiteita

Because of the dry leaves fluttering in the wind
This hill seems different than usual
When I met you
It was a continuous tunnel of nothing but green

itsumo kayoi nareta basho datta no ni
kyou wa hitori ga sabishiku natta
kimi ga tonari ni inai dake de
kootteiku sekai ni kurushiku naru no

It's a place I got used to passing through
But today, all alone, I became lonely
Simply because you aren't by my side
The world freezes over, and it's painful

motto motto chikaku ni kanjitetai yo
kimi no sono tsuyosa made zenbu
sugoku tooku hanareta basho ni itatte
tsunagatteiru kara

I want to feel it even closer, closer
That strength of yours, and everything
Even though we are in greatly separated places
We are connected

yasashii sono koe mo watashi wo mitasu energy

That gentle voice is the energy that fills me

kirakira ame sasou yuugure no machi
kasa wo motazu ni dete kita
bishonure no watashi wo mite
kimi wa IJIWARU ni waratteita

Beckoned by the sparkling rain, I went out
Into the evening town, without an umbrella
Seeing me all drenched
You laughed unkindly

mizutamari wo waza to futari de funde
hamon wo mitsume yakusoku shita ne
kimi no daisuki na fuyu ga kitara
futari no kioku ni kagi wo kakeru to

Together we stepped into the puddles on purpose
Watching the ripples, we made a promise
When the winter you love so much arrives
We will lock away the memories of us

nee
zutto zutto soba de dakishimetetai yo
kimi no sono yowasa datte zenbu
donna kimi ga tsuyogatte misetetatte
tsutawatte kuru kara

Hey
I want to embrace you always, always
That weakness of yours, and everything
No matter how much you show that you've grown stronger
It will still show through

onaji yozora no shita kimi ga naiteiru koto

Beneath the same night sky, you were crying

zutto zutto soba de dakishimeteite yo
atashi no kono itami wo nugutte
tatoe kimi ga atashi wo wasurechatte mo
zutto matteru kara

Embrace me always, always
Wipe away this pain of mine
Even if you should forget me
I will always be waiting

motto motto chikaku ni kanjitetai yo
kimi no sono taion wo itsudemo
sugoku tooku hanareta basho ni itatte
tsunagatteiru kara

I want to feel it even closer, closer
That warmth of yours, always
Even though we are in greatly separated places
We are connected

yasashii sono koe mo atatakai sono ondo mo
kimi no sono subete ga watashi ugokasu energy

That gentle voice, that warm temperature
everything of yours, is the energy that moves me!!

der i go again....

"there it goes again!"
....it seems like i like to whine, but then in the end, everythings just Fine! :)
Its begun again.....
The time when i m down,
When i can only see reasons to frown
My mood is just down...just down.

Everyone when around,
I can laugh and be soo very profound
But when alone i can see, think n hear none
Of those words and sound.

Everything looks sinister, Everything looks bad
Makes me crazy, makes me Mad
Im alone traversing the paths of Destiny
With nothing around
Loneliness just kills me.

At times I trudge through the Waist deep snow,
Seems like the Candle within gives a glow,
Another small event occurs and the light goes out
"I've failed " i think, without any doubt.

Still persevering, due to a sliver of hope
I know, against the obstacles of life, I can cope,
Walking, Crawling, Limping, Dragging,
Because my own Conscience is constantly Nagging.

When i reach the End of the journey,
Hands reach out, like they're for me
Support and Courage it to me renders
Of my soul, they are the Menders.

Continues the rest of the path, till another such journey
Though it seems similar, its a new one, Im sure, it will go away,
'Cause Im headstrong and hopeful, therein my strength lays!

ADVICE

You are born, Life as open as a green and dancing meadow
Joy comes, lifts you in its arms,
Swings you, enlivens you,
Makes you giggle, makes you laugh,
Bliss corners you and you continue.


Learning becomes a part of your life
Anger, Like, Love, Aspire, Expect,
Are giving you lessons and teach you
Patience, Calm, Dislike, Hate and Deject.

Mistakes happen, Situations darken
Path wanders, Mind wavers
Then comes out the soul wrenching Cry
For help to get rescue and safety.

Shadows grow long and encroach into your Fear
When you look around dark valleys surround you, leaving no space to Veer,
Its cold, its harsh, its oppressing
It drives you crazy, It makes you Wild
It is something you can never Just pass by.

Stay Strong, you’ll never go wrong,
Don’t Cry it makes you weak,
Don’t Fear, it draws out a tear,
Don’t Give up, You’ll emerge the Winner.

Don’t complain don’t fret
It will get you nowhere,
Be patient be calm
Or you’ll hate yourself always!

Two sides of a Coin,
Smile and Cry,
Always rule your life,
Dont let them Rule,
Else you'll end up a Fool.

ARIGATOU

The clouds are floating by... The wind is singing
Even now, along the streets I always used to run along,
white flowers are blooming and smiling.

But it's unstoppable. It chokes me up inside
I love the present, but it will always pass...
It's just like a fragment of the dream I cried over long ago

The serenity that floats by like a fluffy white cloud
And the worries that make my tears spill over
are both connected to the precious future,

Even when tomorrow comes
Even when someday I become an adult
I'm sure I'll always remember.
that you were here with me.
I'll never forget,
even when I'm in the very ends of this vast world.
For this moment that will never disappear,
I thank you, everyone.
so...

The moon is shining down. The wind is sleeping.
In the sky above that always smiles down on this town,
even now shooting stars are granting wishes.

But I don't understand... I don't want us to ever part
for as long as time passes, but we end up being far apart
It's just like the bookmark in the book I read yesterday.

My longing to shine like the twinking stars
And my feelings, however sad they may be,
are both connected to the precious future,
so...

Even when the seasons pass,
even if it's in some unfamiliar place somewhere
I'm sure the future is unfolding.
I'll never forget
that you were all here with me.
For what has quietly begun
from this little place,
I thank you, everyone.

The land where we rode our dreams
set forth from our memories
We'll meet again.
For now, please smile...

Even if it's for a long long time...
Even if you go off far away somewhere
I definitely want you to keep in touch.
Don't forget
that I was here with you...
no matter where you are in this vast world.
For these feelings that will never disappear,
I thank you, everyone.

Thank you for all your tenderness
Thank you for all your happiness
Thank you for all your kindness
Thank you for all your everything...

watashi no wa nani naru??

Kyou watashi no kimochi wa totemo takai desyo! Ai no ni iru!
Ureshi no kimochi wa Ai ni narimashita!
Anata ga oboeru...wasuretai ga, wasureru koto ga dekinai!
Anata, omae ga ichiban daisuki desyo!

Omae ga watashi no kimochi wo yoku wakaranai, shiranai noni
Watashi wo wasurechattemo, zutto maatteimasyo!!
Kokoro wa omae kara ai ni ippai...itsumo!!!

----anata no....sukidatta ni hito!

Smile is Misleading!

Life has become such a mess and complex puzzle!! I just cannot say "Im fine" with a light and a true hEART these days!!!

Though practically LIFE IS NOT SO STRAIGHTFORWARD, still, being a human, i still feel disappointed and pained!

None of d relationships(friendship, family,love) hold true...all have become so disappointing! At some stage, if one begins to show some sign of being the perfect one and ultimately show the way to satisfaction, it immediately shows its true colors!

Friendship, companionship, comradeship......Ufff!!! M real bored of these ''SHIP''PING businesses!
But then, they are the most important part of my life. Though thats true, i havent really experienced What true friendship is! I have friends...many friends....some which i call close...but now, i knw, who is close and who isnt! Infact that closeness doesnt even come close to being that special friendship which i have been searching for ages!

Its not that m absolutely depressed, it makes me sad, it makes me feel, 'Watda hell?Why cant everything f9 n simple?'

What is the true meaning of life, if we really are meant to suffer for every hour,minute, second of happiness we experience?

Sometimes life seems the best, sometimes is extremely dull, sometimes has no element of humor n happiness watsoever! These moments tend to render the happy moments to become Sad, when their memories are awakened by some small instance!

How should i then say m happy? M njoing myself?

Though i feel happy at times, even smiling at the moments when i sulk or cry, Pain and Sadness comes gushing with a force double than that of the happiness!! it is then, i revert back to the same old thoughts of Y shud dis Sadness always pursue us? When d darkness begins, comes with it a sense of absolute hopelessness that light will never come again, the birds will not sing again, the sound of the raindrops will never make me feel as good as new, the sky will never b as blue as forget me nots!!

Is there really no solution to all this pain, which is doubly hurting than a simple smile?
Will there be no Ray of Hope to brighten up or eliminate the darkness which always lurks behind a small but infectious smile?

In Times Of

-by Kit McCallum

My soul drifts aimlessly in times of hopelessness. It searches tirelessly for meaning and truth ... Yet finds no direction. My heart bleeds quietly in times of loneliness. It yearns to find warmth and happiness ... Yet it somehow eludes me. My eyes seek out visions in times of want. They gaze endlessly through the blackness that envelops them ... Yet they cannot see the light. My ears listen earnestly in times of silence. They search for familiar sounds to comfort and console ... Yet they cannot penetrate the darkness that surrounds me. My arms reach out frantically in times of despair. They seek strength and compassion to enfold me ... Yet they find nothing substantial to enwrap. My mind cries out desperately in times of solitude. It poses intense questions that demand answers ... Yet there are none to be found. *** My hand reaches out earnestly in these times of confusion. It dials the number of a familiar and calming voice ... And gratefully, my lifeline to sanity ... remains intact. A poem...very true to what i feel very often since the past few days....

Say a little prayer

Dis is for someone Special!!

From the moment I wake up
Before I put on my makeup
I say a little prayer for you..
While combing my hair now
And wondering what dress to wear now
I say a little prayer for you...

Forever, and ever, you'll stay in my heart, and I love you
Forever, and ever, we never will part, oh I love you
Together, together, that's how it should be
To Live without you
Would only mean heartbreak for me...

I run for the bus dear, while riding I think of us dear,
I say a lil prayer for you
At work I just take time, and all through my coffee break time
I say a lil prayer for you...

My darling believe me
For me there is no one but you
Please love me too...I say dis prayer…I’m in love with u…

FRIENDS

Stevie Wonder - That's What Friends Are For Lyrics

Verse 1
And I
Never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try to feel the way we do today
And than if you can't remember.....


Chorus
Keep smilin'
Keep shinin'

Knowin' you can always count on me
for sure
that's what friends are for

In good times
And bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Verse 2
Well you came and open me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you....


Ohhh and then
For the times when we're apart
Well just close your eyes and know
These words are comming from my heart
And then if you can't remember....Ohhhhh
..........
THANX GALS!

OUR SONG

R: Kagayaku sora tto
N: kimi no koe
R: ryo te hirogete
N: kanjitai
  

R: A glittering sky and
N: Your voice
R: With both hands spread out
N: I want to feel it

A: hikaru yuuhodo futari ude o kumi
ironna kotto o kikasete hoshii
K: ienakatta no zutto suki datta
hatsukoi kashira mune ga itai

A: A sparkling promenade both hands put together
I want you to listen to various things
K: There was a lot of unspoken love
Puppy love, I wonder? My heart aches

S:itsuka eki no hoomu koshi dekaruku warai tte o futta
N:sonna gogo no kaerimichi wa
S: tokimeitete yuuyake ga mabushii

S:Somewhere a station home to go over
waved your hand with a light smile
N:Like that afternoon return trip
S: That the throbbing sunset was radiant

R: kagayaku sora tto
N: kimi no koe
R: ryotte hirogete
N: kanjitai
A: watashi no kimochi
K: todoku yoni
A: ryotte hirogete
K: uketomete

R: A glittering sky and
N: Your voice
R: With both hands spread out 
N: I want to feel it
A: My feelings
K: Like reaching them
A: With both hands spread out 
K: Catch them

S: himitsu no tegami takusan kaita kedo
kyoo nara kitto daseru ki ga suru

S: Wrote a lot of secret letters, but
if it was today, surely my feelings would come out

N: kinoo yonda hoshiuranai
K: kitto umaku ikisoo de
A/R: sukoshi yuuki dashita keredo
A: doki doki de aozora ga mabushii

N: The horoscope that was read yesterday
K: Surely, it seems it will go well, and
A/R: A little courage came out, but
A: With excitement, the blue skies are radiant

R: kagayaku sora tto
N: kimi no koe
R: ryotte hirogete
N: kanjitai
A: watashi no kimochi
K: todoku yoni
A: ryotte hirogete
K: uketomete

R: A glittering sky and
N: Your voice
R: With both hands spread out
N: I want to feel it
A: My feelings
K: Like reaching them
A: With both hands spread out
K: Catch them

S/R/A: kagayaku sora tto
N/K: kimi no koe
S/R/A: ryotte hirogete
N/K: kanjitai
S/R/A: watashi no kimochi
N/K: todoku yoni
S/R/A: ryotte hirogete
N/K: uketomete
S/R/A: kagayaku sora tto
N/K: kimi no koe
S/R/A: ryotte hirogete
N/K: kanjitai

all six of us are imagined to be singing!:)

:) Cheers to FRIENDS :)

The post just after this is for my closest friends...well d photograph is of all of us together!

Irrespective of what they feel about it, me or us; I have just posted it because i have realized that they are some so very special people in my life, that i cant imagine living on without them.
Though it might seem to sentimental and and so very absurd to them when they read it, I love them a lot.
This is a realization which struck me today, when while returning home, i happened to sit a bit away from them, coz i thot i shouldnt be irritating them. I dunno, i hv been trying to improve over my communication with them, cracking idiotic jokes but at the same time trying to understand what they feel and what they need to be there for them, but today, i thought that i simply might be overdoing it by irritating them.
So, since i cant say all this to them openly, i'm sorry for whatever i do unkwowningly to hurt them or irritate them. This is my way to express myself. I cant do better! :)
Hey, there are two more songs which are coming up for us!
"Whatever happens in future, Thank You!"

TOMODACHI...ga daisuki !

shigyou BERU kinishinagara  kakete kuru KURASUMEITO
  koe kakeru no  nee "Ohayou!"
  natsukusa ga kaoru hodou  hohoemide hajimaru asa
  itsumo to onnaji dakedo
     Worrying about the starting bell, a classmate comes running up
        calling "Good morning!"
        The sidewalk is fragrant with summer grasses.
           The morning begins with a smile.
        It's the same as always, but...

sarigenai shunkan sae  watashi no takaramono
  kokoro no ARUBAMU ni  hatte aru
     Even a casual moment is a treasure to me,
        pasted in the album of my heart.

* wasurenai (kono sora wo)
  wasurenai (kono yume wo)
  anata to ima wakeau  yasashii kisetsu
  kanashikute (yureta hi mo)
  ureshikute (naita hi mo)
  taisetsu na omoide na no
     I won't forget (this sky)
        I won't forget (this dream)
        the gentle seasons I now share with you.
        In sadness (the days I shook and),
        In joy (the days I cried),
        these are important memories.

hi ga ataru watarirouka  tomodachi ni uchiaketa ne
suteki na hito  demo "naisho..."
kiri-sugita kami wo kuyami  nemurenai yoru mo atta
itsuka wa waraeru kashira
     In a covered passage in the sun, I confided in a friend:
        a wonderful person, but "it's a secret..."
        Lamenting the hair I cut too short, there were nights I couldn't sleep.
        I wonder if I can ever laugh about it.

sazanami ga sarau you ni  hakanaku kieta koi
itami ga kakokei ni  kawatte mo
     As if washed away by rippling waves, love was fleetingly worn away.
        Even if the pain becomes past tense,

wasurenai (ano niji wo)
wasurenai (ano ai wo)
sou OTONA ni natte mo  nakushitakunai
hashaideta (itsu datte)
nayandeta (ima datte)
mabushisa wa owaranai no
     I won't forget (that rainbow)
        I won't forget (that love)
        Even if I become an adult, I don't want to lose them.
        I was high-spirited (at any time)
        I was distressed (even now)
        the dazzling brightness doesn't end.